Scrum Half

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I didn't talk to Matthew for the rest of the day and ignored almost everything he said to me; I had a point to make. When school ended, I didn't say bye to him and walked straight to my car, bag thrown over my shoulder. I opened the door of my Volvo and sat in the front seat, my bag on the passenger seat... where Matthew usually sat. I reached for my phone, and quickly realised I'd left my calculator in the common room.
I hurried back to get it, only to find the main door to the block was locked so I decided to try the fire exit round the back. I headed around to check if it was on the benches outside, before I went in. As I turned the corner, I could see two figures sat close together on the bench, and decided to halt my stride and peer round the side of the brick wall to see who it was. I watched for a few minutes, trying to figure out who it was, only to realise that the messy blonde hair the girl was playing with belonged to Matthew, with Jenna by his side. Fury filling into my face, I rushed over urgently, and ripped them apart, tears swelling in my eyes.
"What the FUCK are you doing!" I screamed at both of them. Matthew just sat there stuttering; I knew my premonitions were correct - they had been seeing each other behind my back. And on our two month anniversary this is how he treats me?
I'd had enough of his pathetic mumbling, and decided to head to back to the car, as Jenna sat there with a smirk forming at the side of her mouth.
I picked up my pace as I turned the corner, only to see Matthew running after me as I turned my head to the right. 
"Ben wait!" He yelled as he grabbed my hand, despite my furious tugging. "Just let me explain to you. I-"
"I'm not interested." I said as I cut him off. "All I've ever done is love you," I continued. "All I've ever done is want to be with you. I've opened myself to you. Made myself vulnerable to you - all in an attempt to tie myself to you in every way humanly possible. I've offered you shelter, unconditional love, like I've never experienced before. And all you can do is turn your back on me when I've needed you the most. You know how I've suffered at the hands of love before; it was supposed to be a promise that was ripped away from me when I was young and innocent. I thought you could save me; catch me when I needed you too, and that I could do the same for you. Our relationship is the only thing that's given me confidence over the past few months; the only thing that's given me confidence and made me happy. But now I realise we are truly alone in this world and there is NOTHING that can redeem us. Now please...LEAVE ME ALONE." I said through stifled tears.
He looked back at me with a blank expression and didn't say anything - I knew the conversation was over.

I turned around and ran back to my car, wiping my face as I went. Just as I passed the gate, I saw Camden walking towards the leisure centre after grabbing a duffle bag from his Ford Fiesta in the car space next to mine.
"Woah woah woah. Ben, what's wrong?" Exclaimed Camden as he grabbed my shoulders, studying my tears.
"Oh it's nothing... I just think me and Matt are done. I just saw him... with Jenna." I replied, still choking on my speech.
"Oh man, I'm so sorry Ben. I think I know what you're talking about... i saw them together in the photography room the other day. Jenna was taking photos of him for...'art'" he quoted with his two fingers. "If there's anything I can do for you just let me know, I'll always be here for you." He said rubbing my arm.
"Thanks Cam, I just think I need to get away for now."