CROSSED. A VAMPIRE KNIGHT//TOKYO GHOUL FANFICTION.

[8] beach slap mother trucker

I crept into the room, trying not to wake Zero, but he was already wide awake, looking at me from the bed with dreary eyes. 'What took you so long?' he asked.

'I had to tie up some loose ends, it took longer than I thought.' he raised his eyebrow at me but dropped it, not bothering to pursue.

'How was class with those bloodsuckers?' I rolled my eyes at the memory, walking to my closet to get changed.

'I think I'm suddenly growing an appreciation for Kaien's cooking classes.' We both chuckled at the idea. Kaien cross was a man of many things, but he should stick to managing the teachers, not being one.

'Do you remember the time when he cut the tomato with that blunt knife and it exploded everywhere?'

Zero groaned at that horrible but hilarious memory. It was early evening and Kaien was adamant about teaching us boys to cook so we could be propper "men of the house". Thing is, every time he did this it always went horribly wrong in some way.

This particular evening we had some overripe tomatoes fresh from the garden that's bursting with juices. And Kaien, the ever so clever man, grabs the bluntest knife, goes to chop the tomato, and it explodes, all over himself and Zero.

Oh man, that was a sight. sometimes I swear I still get a whiff of tomato from him.

'Don't remind me, I prefer that memory locked and sealed away forever.'

'Oh yeah? Just like the sledding incident.' I went on to list embarrassing stories from Zero and I's past as I was getting changed. I paid the price with several pillows tossed at high velocity into my face.

I collected the pillows and slid into bed next to him, putting them back down and turning off the lamp on my bedside table. I burrowed under the covers, feeling empty.

'Zero...' He hummed and turned over, facing me as I stared up at the ceiling.

'Can you hold me?' My eyes turn to the side to see his face going beet red. He reached out and wrapped his arms around me, mine following suit. I grabbed him tight and started sniffling, tears brimming in my eyes.

'I'm a bad friend.' I say, the tears choking back half my words. Zero gave me silence, letting me explain myself. 'I... how could I just leave Mary and Neji all by themselves? I can't even look after them from afar with how separated the headmaster and Kaname wants me to be from humans.' tears start flowing out of my eyes, drenching Zero's shoulder where I borrowed my head in.

'I mean they're asking me to completely distance myself from humanity, just being near them makes me a dangerous person. What am I supposed to do?'

I cried. I don't know for how long, but I had to let it out. All the built-up emotions, anger, stress, sadness exploding out at once. The thought of how much pain Mary and Neji was in, how I attacked Akastuki without a second thought and how I put Zero in an impossible situation by begging him to kill me.

Right now I couldn't see myself as anything but an ugly burden. All because I am the thing I hate most.

I tried to hide it, tried to convince myself that I could come to like Kaname, to befriend those in the night class, but the truth is being near them makes me want to shoot all of them and then myself.

I mean the person that I love the most in this universe, is deemed by the social hierarchy to be my inferior, and he has to live with me smelling like the one thing he hates so much. So what if he's a vampire? at least he was still relatively normal. I don't even look like myself anymore, feel like myself.

I fell asleep thinking about anything but positive thoughts.

***

Some days had passed. The same routine of getting up after Zero had already gone and then going over to the moon dorm so I could get lessons from Kaname on how to control myself.