Last summer - Jihope & Taekook ✅

Chapter 43: Dark cloud

IN THE BATHROOM

Jimin found the bathroom and went inside, locking the door behind him.

He stared into the mirror and tried to wrap his head around what just happened. Who the hell was that woman? Jimin couldn't deny the facts and they clearly indicated one thing.

A lover. Hoseok had another lover.

"I'm busy. I'll see you some other time." Hoseok had said to her.

And Jimin had been stupid enough to think that he was Hoseok's one and only love, his first love, someone special. Just like Hoseok was so special to him.

And why the fuck hadn't Hosoek said anything afterwards? Not even a dismissive comment! There was only one explanation. Hoseok didn't want Jimin to know.

All the insecurity Jimin had ever felt about how Hoseok saw their relationship suddenly overwhelmed him and made him lose all his strength. 

He had to sit down, while he felt the anxiety settling like a dark cloud on his mind.

Their relationship, everything between them, it had always been on Hoseok's terms. Jimin was the one always waiting, pleading, hoping, obeying Hoseok's whims. One day Hoseok wanted Jimin, showed him all that love and affection. The next day Jimin was dumped and Hoseok ignored him. And Jimin just obeyed. He came when Hoseok said 'come' and left when Hoseok said 'leave'. Like a dog, wagging its tail happily when he got attention, accepting when it got none and then just as happy next time.

What kind of relationship was that, really? Jimin heard Tae's words echoing in his mind.

You should forget about him. He doesn't deserve you. He'll just hurt you.

And Tae had been right. Jimin had been hurt. The physical abuse from the kidnappers was nothing compared to the heartache Hoseok had caused him by dumping him, ignoring him. Again and again.

The first time after they had shared that intense romantic moment by the lake and Hoseok had totally ignored Jimin when they met in school.

The second time, the kissing under the streetlamp. That wonderful, crazy moment, filled with lust, desire and something more. Jimin had hoped so much that it meant... something. And then Hoseok had ignored him again.

The third time, when they made out during detention. The longing and lust in Hoseok's eyes, the loving words he had said to Jimin. In the end it all meant nothing. Hoseok had pushed him away again.

The fourth time, after Hoseok saved him from Kai. Those amazing days together, so filled with happiness, they got so close. Hoseok had said he loved Jimin, for the first time. Jimin had believed him, had got his hopes up. But then again, Jimin was sent away, dumped, ignored.

And now, this amazing date. Hoseok looking so hot, so handsome, hinting he wanted to take Jimin to bed tonight. Jimin wanted that so badly. But then this woman, and Hoseok just ignored Jimin, just let Jimin watch while she was standing there, touching Hoseok, flirting with him just in front of Jimin's eyes.

He heard Hoseok's words to her over again in his head.

Sorry, I'll see you some other time, okay?

And her answer.

Once you are done with him, I'll... be waiting for you.

Jimin felt the black cloud in his mind taking a grip of his heart and lungs as well. He could barely breathe. He loved Hoseok so much. He couldn't stand the thought of him being with someone else, touching her, kissing her, undressing for her, ... fucking her.