Boy Band's Ballet Dancer

Chapter 42: Switch

The photo shoot was tiring, hindi ko maiwasang hindi hawakan ang batok ko, bigla kong namiss si Yi Fan kaya I decided to hang out sa dorm nila. Pagpasok ko sa dorm ay sobrang tahimik ng lugar, I guess wala sila dito. I went upstairs kung saan ang attic at binuksan ang balcony bago ako humiga sa gitna ng sahig. Gusto kong mapag-isa at pumikit kahit sa ilang oras na wala sila. Pumikit na ako't nakatulog na.

"Fei." Humarap si Fei sa akin at ngumiti.

Fei uses this machine on my neck for communication hologram.

"Long time no see." She smiled bitterly and went to sit beside her. Nasa isang border kami ng dalampasigan at nakatingin lang siya sa view, gusto ko siyang pag masdan... Kahit anong titig ko ay wala sa bakas ng kanyang mukha ng galit. Maiksi na ang buhok niya, hindi katulad sa akin na mahaba parin.

"Kaylangan mo nga pala akong kausapin?" Tugon niya sa akin at iniwas ko kaagad ang tingin ko sa kanya. Tumayo ako at humarap sa kanya.

"I want an explanation Fei, of why you are doing all of this..." Tinignan niya ang bawat kilos ko, kalmado parin siya, dahil dun ay hindi ko siya mabasa.

"You know why Jiaxin. I hate your family, especially your father."

"Then why does it have to be me or them? Hindi mo sila kaylangang idamay."

"Your father killed my father. Hindi mo ba alam kung gaano kasakit ang mawalan ng mahal sa buhay? An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. Isn't that your company's motto?"

"Alam ko kung anong nararamdaman mo pero hindi kaylangan humantong sa ganito. Hindi ko rin kasalanan ang nangyari sayo Fei, wala akong kinalaman sa pagkamatay mo, or so they thought you died." Kumunot ang nuo niya at tumawa ng mapait.

"I did that to break the connection, I was selfish to let go of Yixing and I didn't want to hurt Kai so I faked my death." Sigaw niya. Napa nga-nga ako at nawalan ako ng boses sa sinabi niya.

"You didn't want to hurt him, then why are you trying to hurt him now?" Nakatitig lang siya sa mga mata, I'm trying to read her and I realized something.

"You loved him... Didn't you? You actually cared for him, and when I came into the scene, you saw me as a threat, and when he's on the way, you're making your own way to me... By killing me." Hindi siya makatingin sa akin ng deretso. I scoffed, tumalikod ako sa galit, gusto kong sumigaw.

But I choose not to.

"Are you really that naive?" Tumalon siya at sumandal sa pader ng border. "Yes they were on my way, trying to protect you, so they leave me no choice. Even Kai, he left me no choice."

Tumango ako ng tumango at natawa.

"I just want to hear everything from you. And I guess I was right, you loved Kai but you chose Lay... Pero ano? Natakot ka bang sabihin kay Lay ang nararamdaman mo? Everytime he remembers you he sees nothing but red. He was angry because you leaved him nothing but begging! He was to everyone, to Kai, to me because we looked the same!!!" she pushed her, but I pushed me harder.

"Alam ko na balang araw kung bumalik ka ay tatanggapin ka parin niya't po-protektahan! Pero paano niya po-protektahan ang isang taong matagal nang nag sisinungaling sa kanya?... Fei, he's not going to be yours forever!"