fall for u [JenLisa]

nineteen

-jennie-

Tomorrow is already Christmas day so our house is well decorated with Christmas ornaments that Jay and I worked hard to build last week, specially the huge Christmas tree in the living room. It was actually fun doing all these stuff, spending the Christmas holidays with him, but I'm already dreading what's to come.

Tomorrow, we tell him. 

"Is there something bothering my cute little sister?" Jay suddenly pops out of nowhere, his arm on my shoulder.

I jumped in surprise that made him chuckle.

"What are you thinking?" he asks, dropping his arm as he leaned on the window before me.

"Nothing."

"Better not be boys," he reminds me with a serious face. The guilt worsened once again. I hate this so much.

"I'm not thinking about boys."

I must've said it with so much conviction that made him nod and smile. "Good. I want you to focus on your studies first. I'm doing all these to protect you, Jennie, so you could be happy someday. I don't want you to settle with anyone just because they promise you the world. They're the ones who will ruin your world, trust me."

"Why? Is that what men like you do?"

He wrinkled his nose. "I'm your brother, I'd never do anything to hurt you."

"But you hurt other women?" I concluded.

"Of course not. Not intentionally, at least-"

"Then why are you so against men like you, when you said it yourself it could be unintentional?"

"Because you're too young and could easily be taken advantage of. And why are you so pressed on this? Are you hiding something from me Jennie Ruby Jane?"

"No, you're just... weird."

He narrowed his eyes at me. I shrugged and turned my back on him, "I'll just take a shower before I prepare our dinner."

"Okay..."

I quickly dashed off before he even notices it's taking a lot of me just to stay calm. I showered for a while, letting my mind wander as I was anxious for tomorrow. I really hope Jay would be fine with Lisa and I, he's overprotective but I know he'll come around in time because Lisa makes me really happy.

Changing into clean clothes inside my room, I realized I left my phone in the living room so I quickly went to get in when I saw Jay, his back facing on me, but I was sure he was scrolling through my phone.

No. Oh, no, no.

"Jay?" I called for him in a soft whisper. He turned sharply to me, his accusing, cold eyes making me shiver.

"What's this, Nini?" he raised up his phone and I realized he was scrolling through my pictures with Lisa.

"Jay..."

"It's not what I'm thinking, is it? You... Lisa?" he rose from his seat, facing me with his brows furrowed. He looked angry but was trying to hold it in, it scares me. I wasn't prepared. He took me off guard.

I tried not to shed off a tear though they're already building up in my eyes.

"We're together," I said in a very little and shaky voice that I wondered if he heard it. If his jaw clenching was any indication, he certainly did.

"That motherfucker," I turned his back on me, rubbing his face in his palms angrily.

"Jay please, calm down..." I reached out to touch his shoulder but he just brushed me away. Tears strolled down my face.