fall for u [JenLisa]

twenty six

2nd to the last chapter.

-lisa-

Love is a scary thing.

This woman, my woman, soundly asleep on her bed is the perfect representation of it. Not because she's scary when she's angry, not because her little snores scare me. They're cute, actually.

She scares me the most whenever I think of losing her, whenever I feel like I'm losing her.

I don't know how to even think of what I witnessed last night. She was crying in someone else's arms. They were crying together, she and Rosé.

She loves Jennie.

Jennie didn't tell me it was her. Is that why it affects her so damn much?

I want to believe what she said the last time, though. She feels nothing towards Rosé. Nothing. She didn't tell me everything, not the whole detail, but she said she doesn't like her back. That's enough. I should believe her.

I've been cheated on before. It was devastating, like someone's digging a hole in my chest and it still felt like it was my fault. Like I deserved it because I was lacking.

If I hadn't pulled Jennie away last night, they could've kissed. Jennie could've said I love you back. I was too scared to know what could've happened next that I pulled her in my arms before I witness anything that could shatter me.

Love is a scary thing.

You would think I'd be too broken to love and to trust someone else the second time around, but that's what made it even more scary. I'm even willing to fight for Jennie and never let her go despite having my heart broken before her.

I walked up to her bed and sat beside her when she stirred awake, eyes adjusting to her surroundings until it landed on me.

"Oh, God," she palmed her forehead, sliding her fingers through her hair as she winced.

I brought the glass of water and the medicine I've prepared on her bedside table while she slowly sat up and leaned on the headboard.

"Here, take this first," I tell her, putting the tablet on her hand that she popped in her mouth obediently before emptying the glass of water.

"Better?" I searched her eyes.

"God, I'm so sorry for being a mess last night," she met my eyes groggily, her voice hoarse.

"You remember everything last night?"

"Yeah, in the bathroom. Then... Then..." her lips parted, head sharply tilting downwards to stare at her body and sighed in relief seeing she's fully clothed.

"Yeah, you were kind of pissed at your bra," I gave her a tight smile while she pressed her forehead to my shoulder in embarrassment.

"I'll never drink that hard again," she mumbles to herself.

"It's okay," I suppressed a smile, deciding not to push her right now since she must be feeling horrible with her hangover yet. "Want me to bring you breakfast... lunch and dinner here?"

Well, it's almost dinner time.

"Dinner? Oh no, I've troubled you enough," she lifted her head, eyes wide and cheeks flushed. She then leaned a little and pressed her lips on the corner of mine, "I'm so sorry, Lili. Did you skip work today?"

"It's fine."

She frowns, "You know I'm not usually like that, right? I promise it won't happen again."

She's clearly embarrassed of how she acted last night, I can see it in her eyes. Truth is, the last thing she has to worry about is how I see her. I can forgive her a million times for being reckless, as long as she isn't reckless enough to slip away from my grasp. She's perfect in my eyes and mine.