Saved by the Way (SLOW REVISIONS)

Chapter 23

I walked through a forest of trees. Each tree was bare. A thick fog could be seen on the horizon closing in on me.

I walked towards the fog hoping it would swallow me up.

As I got closer, the fog seemed to get further. I'd never reach it. It was too far for me to get.

I sat down beneath a tree's bare branches to rest for a moment. I closed my eyes in peace then opened them. The fog was returning on the horizon.

This time, a figure appeared with them.

A pale, dark haired little girl.

She was wearing what appeared to be a black ballet dress. It was laced and ribboned all along the skirt and torso.

She kept getting closer to me. She didn't back away.

At last, the child was standing just in front of me. She was a beautiful child. All he color from her face had been stolen from her leaving her with nothing but a haunting white. It contrasted greatly with her jet black hair and outfit.

"Mommy, play with me." she said in an adorable voice.

"Of course, but what's your name again?" I asked the little girl.

"Don't you remember me? I'm Eternity."

Eternity.

I stood up and attempted to grab my baby's hand, but she shrieked a blood curdling scream and backed away from me.

She started shrinking and turning black. Her feet morphed to become thin and angular. Her arms morphed to be black wings. Her mouth contorted to become a beak. She then took flight into the fog.

I started running after the direction she flew into. Searching for the raven my baby was. But the fog retreated into the horizon.

*******

I awoke with a start. I sat straight up from a puddle of sweat.

I instinctively grabbed my phone. I checked it to find I had 13 new messages.

Hey, U OK?
~Gerard

Didn't want to talk to Gerard yet. Next.

Hey fatty!
~Taylor

Hey stupid why don't you jump off a bridge?
~Taylor

I hate you. You suck.
~Taylor

Gonna go cut your wrists and cry yourself to sleep emo scum?
~Taylor

When life gives you emo's, kill them because they're too stupid to be alive.
~Taylor

Y AREN'T U DEAD YET!!!!!!????????
~Taylor

I couldn't take it anymore. Without caring, I grabbed my phone and chucked it at the wall. The phone split in two and the screen was completely shattered.

I felt a wave of relief wash over me.

After the few moments of relief I remembered the dream.

The relief quickly turned to stress and anxiety. How much more do I have to take!?

I asked myself in my mind. I could feel tears spilling from my eyes. I had gone through too much and the scary part was not knowing how much more.

But there was one way to control it. My life wasn't limited by a baby anymore and nobody truly needed me now.

Nobody needed me to be strong.

Gerard had moved on, I was sure. Mikey probably hated me. My mom didn't need or want me. Eternity was dead. My dad I hadn't seen in years and doubted he'd care.

This world didn't need me. I was nothing but a waste of time, money, and strength.

I was such a waste. Just another suicidal girl who felt like nothing. Who felt like the world was just something you reside in. Nothing more. It wasn't about my education and that wouldn't matter.

I pulled out a piece of paper and began to plot my plan.