Saved by the Way (SLOW REVISIONS)

Chapter 33

I awoke the next morning tangled in Gerard's arms. Gerard had told me last night that all he wanted was to hold me in his arms.

I turned my head to look at Gerard's face and noticed he was staring at the ceiling lost in thought. Something was most definitely on his mind and was pressing on his heart like a hot iron.

I brought my face up to his and kissed him.

He was quick to catch on and didn't hesitate to cup my face between both his hands.

My fingers soon made their way up into his messy mop of black hair. They'd made that trip so many times I didn't even have to think about it.

I gasped as his lips locked around my lower lip and sucked gently. I decided to do the same to his top lip making him relax a little.

He began to nibble on my bottom lip. My breathing hitched in a good way and I could feel fireworks rush through my body.

I felt the kiss loosen a bit and that it was coming to an end. I nipped at Gerard's lip once more before we both pulled away.

"Good morning." Gerard said with a smirk.

"Morning." I smiled.

"Want some coffee?" he asked.

I nodded and sat up.

"I'm really wanting some Starbucks if that's OK." he added.

I hadn't had Starbucks in forever and nodded eagerly.

I hopped out of bed and stepped over to my bag of clothes. I pulled out one of my Anthrax shirts and a pair of black skinny jeans and headed upstairs to change. It was uncomfortable changing while Gerard was still in the room.

I combed through my hair with my fingers and decided it was good enough.

I went back downstairs to find Gerard in a slipknot shirt and some red skinny jeans with a grey hoodie on his shoulders.

"It's chilly out, you should put on a hoodie or something." Gerard pleadded.

"Alright" I answered pulling out a black hoodie and pushing my arms through the sleeves.

Gerard linked his arms in mine and walked up the stairs of the dark home with me. He was awfully quiet.

As we left the house I felt something churn inside me. I felt uneasy and anxious. I had no fucking clue why, but I felt strange. As if I wouldn't come back here for a long time.

***

Gerard and I sat quietly in my favorite park sipping our coffee. He had barely spoken a word to me since we left his house.

"Gerard, what's wrong? There's something bothering you." I knew something was on his mind.

"You do know that I love you, right?" he asked shakily.

"Of course I do, Gerard." I responded. What was going on?

"You promise you'll always love me?" he asked turning to look me in the eye.

I nodded eagerly wanting to know what was upsetting him.

"That's all I needed to know." he replied calming down a bit.

What was actually going on?

"Gerard, there's something bothering you, I know."

Gerard let out a sigh. "Everything is fine."

I didn't believe him. There was something wrong. But I didn't press the question further.

We sat in silence until we were both ready to leave.

He put his arm around me as he lead me into the car.

"Scarlett, how about we go for a little drive." he said calmly.

"That sounds lovely." I replied.

We drove around the city in silence for awhile until Gerard pulled onto an unfamiliar road.

"Where are we going?" I asked frantically as I suddenly recognized the road.

I looked at Gerard and his eyes were fixed on the road ahead. His knuckles on the steering wheel had turned an even paler white. I noticed a few tears leaking from his eyes.

I let out a sob as I remembered everything horrible from this place came back. My destination came into view. A hospital. But not a normal one. This is a hospital for the insane.

"Gerard, why are you doing this to me?" I screamed.

Gerard let out a sob and murmured out a few words. "Because I'm afraid of losing you."

I started to sob as he pulled into the parking lot. Gerard pulled me into a hug.

I heard voices and people outside the car and they were familiar voices.

They pulled open my car door and pulled me out of the car. Away from Gerard and into the house of the insane.

I began to sob uncontrollably as I saw Gerard sitting in his car with his hand over his mouth sobbing.

The doctors pulled me into the doors of the hospital and lead me to my old room.

All the horrors I had lived in this room came back to me in a flood of memories.

The doctors and nurses all left me alone and shut the doors for me to cry.

I had nothing but a barred window and a bed in this white room.

I felt the moist tears leak from my eyes and roll down my cheeks.

I felt betrayed and sorrowful. Why did Gerard do that to me?

I put my hands in my pocket of my hoodie and felt a slip of paper inside and smiled between tears at the memories of all the slips of paper he'd left in my pockets before.

I carefully unfolded the paper and read it through tear filled eyes.

"Cemetery Drive"

This night, walk the dead
In a solitary style
And crash the cemetery gates.
In the dress your husband hates
Way down, mark the grave
Where the search lights find us
Drinking by the mausoleum door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Back home, off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrists
It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun
So I won't stop dying, won't stop lying (are you there at all?)
If you want I'll keep on crying (do you care at all?)
Did you get what you deserve? (are you there at all?)
Is this what you always want me for?

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard

When will I miss you, when will I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that made it so hard
Made it so hard

Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down

Listen, Scarlett, I love you with all my heart. Don't hate me for doing this. It'll all make sense one day.
Love,
Gerard

The End