Saved by the Way (SLOW REVISIONS)

Chapter 15

About two weeks had passed. Frank had gotten me eating again. The color had returned to my cheeks and the shine to my hair and eyes.

Gerard was coming home today. I was still sensitive to being touched. I didn't like it. I hoped Gerard wouldn't notice.

My phone buzzed and I excitedly grabbed it.

Hey, mind if I come by?
-Gerard

Come on by. I don't have anything else to do.
Scarlett^ω^

K, be over in a few
-Gerard

I could feel the butterflies bursting in my stomach.

I heard a knock on my window. It startled me actually. I thought it would have been on my door, but my window?

I looked out of my window, and sure enough, Gerard was standing in the pit surrounding my basement window.

His face lit up when he saw me.

I quickly unlatched my window and slid the glass open.

He smiled then jumped down into my bedroom.

"I missed you!" he says.

"I missed you." I reply with a smile.

He reaches his arms around me band embraces me in a hug.

I flinch at the touch, but it was almost comforting.

He then cups my face in his hands and kisses me. That was too much. I don't kiss back and soon Gerard is pulling away looking a little hurt and concerned.

Gerard takes me hand and pulls me to sit on the edge of the bed next to him.

Gerard then pulls me in for a more relaxed kiss. This one I kiss back on. He isn't forcing me anymore and I can break away if I want. This is how kisses should be.

We pull away after a couple of minutes. "I love you, Gerard."

"And I love you."

He starts caressing my sleeved forearm then ends up rolling up my sleeve a little.

The shock on his face is plain. So is the hurt. My arm is decorated in a pattern of lines. Fresh rivers of blood and pain that line themselves up in rows of perfection. Remnants of pain and hurt that take ages to heal. Little red highways for the pain to exit and lying relief to enter because the relief cutting gives only turns to pain.

"Scarlett...." he murmured. The pain and disappointment in his voice was clear.

He then acknowledges the bruise on the inner side of my arm where I was pinned down.

He traces the outer edge of the bruise and sighs. It's purple and red and blue all over. Turning into a faded yellow as all my blood vessels attempt to heal themselves.

He leans his head down to my arm and slowly kisses each scar. There's a lot of scars so there's a lot of kisses. I surprisingly don't mind Gerard touching me as much as I thought I would. I guess I trust him and he makes me feel safe.

He finishes kissing my scars and places a soft kiss on my mouth.

"Oh Scarlett." he says. I can hear his voice breaking.

"Promise me you won't do this anymore. " I see a tear leak from his eye.

I reach my finger out and brush the tear away.

"You'd better not be wasteful of these tears. Tears are emotions leaving you. You'd better hold them tight because sometimes emotion is all we have left. We've lost all our physical items, but we'll still have what's inside us." I heard my voice break.

Gerard gives me a sad smile and I lean up on him. Oh Gerard.

He's forgotten something though. I never promised.