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my sweet sweet beautiful boy . i hate the way you hide your emotions , the way you pretend you're okay . i wanted nothing more from you but to just hear you say it back . but instead you walked away , like a coward you walked away . and i just turned into another problem , just some dumb girl .*FLASHBACK*
apart from the big black doors there you stood . like a child at a candy store , excited , nervous almost . you had been here many times before but this had been different . this was going to be different . with a harsh swift the door bursts open and draco lets you in .
"y/n you're finally here!" he exclaimed . he was smiling , his smile was so extraordinary . you've only ever seen it when he's around you , his true smile .
"hi draco!" you said as he pulled you into the manor , guiding up the cold marble stone steps and down the hallway to his bedroom .
"slow down" you said in between breaths , "i just got here i'm still tired" you finished . but by that time you were already in his bedroom . a cold , yet welcoming place . this place was so familiar to you as you spent hours here on end .
the black and green room , a king sized bed sat in front of a window . the window which would've brought in a bright light but instead was darkened by the black curtains . the room to others , would be dark and unwelcoming . but draco . . he made it welcoming . seeing him made you want to stay in there with him forever .
"i'm sorry , ive just missed you" draco said giving a welcoming and promising look while sitting down onto the floor . an expression you didn't see much often for him .
"i've missed you too!" you say walking over to sit next to him . he put his hand on top of yours . usually you didn't like holding hands . but draco was different . he was just different .
*END OF FLASHBACK*
"it's a good thing you two aren't a thing anymore," ron said stuffing pastries into his mouth . you were too busy giving draco a longing look , you knew he wouldn't look back at you . he had stopped doing that 2 weeks ago . he had moved on as fast as you'd fallen in love .
"wh- what why ?" you said , pulling your eyes from draco , straining, it hurt almost . you weren't in the moment , but any word of this to your friends and they'd shoot it down .
"we can't have our best friend dating a malfoy , he's on the losing team remember ?" ron said , finally putting down his food for a chance for him to breath .
he was right . so right , you wanted him to be wrong . you couldn't handle the fact he was right . you wanted to tell him , 'he wouldn't understand' . or anything of the sort but you just weren't motivated . you hadn't been eating for days , your only light that brightened up your day had been missing . your sun had been darkened by clouds , by something you didn't want to remember . you felt a hand on your back , secretly hoping for it to be someone . but it was just harry . you hated saying that , just harry , you didn't hate him . you just wish he wasn't there for you , maybe that would've helped you and draco last longer . just anything that ultimately messed up your world you wish you could erase .
"he's right y/n , but it'll be okay ," harry tried to say in a reassuring tone . "you'll find someone else , we know it" . the words someone else made squirm . you didn't want someone else you just wanted draco . just him . and to that you quickly got up and ran to the bathroom .
once you had gotten to the bathroom you let your guard down . you cried and cried . for hours you wanted to stay there . for hours you just wanted to cry , you had worked so hard , risked everything . and it was all gone . you did this often . everyday it felt like . you heard sounds burst into the bathroom . it was a mixture of giggles and excitement . but it was a laugh you would remember . it was dracos . you peeked through the slight opening between bathroom stalls and there it was . you hadn't known it before but this time your life had rlly crumbled down . the sight of another girl being with draco killed you . but the sight of draco being happy with another girl . that was worse . you wanted to leave . you needed to leave . but you couldn't .
"dracy-poo i think there's someone in here" the girl said . you had stopped breathing for a second , you couldn't bear to see dracos face . and after all this time , he couldn't have seen you like this .
"hello ?" the voice said slamming their hand on the door, "get out you creep !" they had known you were in here . you had to leave . you opened the door slowly and tried to avoid eye contact , all until you saw draco . his eyes were so mesmerizing , you had forgotten what it was like to fall into them . for seconds you stared into his eyes , your eyesight was glossy but you knew dracos face so well . there was so much you wanted to say . 'i'm sorry' 'i miss you' and one last final 'i love you' but instead you turned away . wiping the final tear from your eyes as you stepped outside from the bathroom . secretly you had hoped he would run after you , but alas we all knew he wouldn't . that wasn't like him , not anymore anyways .
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Fighting The Inevitable (A Draco x Reader story)
Fanfiction~fighting the inevitable~ the last of it. all of your troubles, all of your worries, all of your moments, all of them... gone. but this wasn't how it was supposed to be? you've done everything you were supposed to, IS THIS HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE...