Killing Thoughts

I'm Sorry

At times like this, I want to cry.

My eyes swell up with tears.

I know I cannot win this fight.

My thoughts have all become fears. 

How can there be love out there?

True love that holds your heart,

When every time he disappears,

It tears me apart. 

I cannot bear the weight any longer.

I cannot stand the pain.

I have already gone down under.

After that I am afraid.

Afraid I'll sink and never recover.

Never get the water out of my lungs.

Afraid that I will forever lose the one I love. 

And die while I'm still young.

I think I already ruined my chance,

When I slammed my door on you.

I know there's no point in asking for a dance,

When you already know the truth.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I lied.

I'm sorry I failed.

I know you implied

If I lied it would hail.

But even with warning, I did not listen.

I still lied, And I fell.

As I did my tears glistened.

As I tumbled down to hell.