Killing Thoughts

False Protector

You were supposed to be my protector.

You were supposed to be my friend.

Your job was to always be there for me.

But now because of you, I want my life to end. 

You used to tell me you loved me.

I used to make you smile.

But now all you do is yell and scream.

The sad thing is- it's been like that for a while.

You tell me I'm not good enough.

You tell me I'm a mistake.

I never asked you to bring me into this world.

It was your stupid decision oh what a fool you make.

You tell me I can do something.

The next moment it's illegal.

You lie and cheat and steal and hurt.

You never care about how anyone else feels.

You tell me that it's my fault.

That I cause all the issues.

"You blame everything on me when I'm the one being stepped on".

You're somehow always the one who needs to wipe their eyes with a tissue.

I'm so sorry that I'm not the daughter you wanted.

I'm sorry I ruined your life.

If I had the choice I would gladly pick a different mother.

Right now I'm thinking about using the knife.