The rain drips down the window
I feel heavier than before
Everything I had ever dreamed of
Was swiped away from me in an instant
A pit inside grows deeper
Every step I take it becomes more empty
I feel like every time I cry
there's less of me inside
I hate looking at happy families
They make me mad because that's something I've never had
But I don't think any family is truly happy
There's always something underneath the smiles
There are lies and secrets that hold them back
I grew up in a church where the parents were married
My friends all had siblings
They would complain and tell me that I was lucky
But they don't know how lonely it is
It's just me and my mom
And she doesn't care
So maybe if I had a sibling
I wouldn't be alone any more
I was always jealous of the families I saw
But maybe I am lucky
I'm not stuck in a pit of lies deception hatred and fake love
So maybe it's a gift to be alone
When you are alone no can hurt you
No one but yourself
When you are alone no one can desert you
You are just stuck with yourself
You can never trust anyone
No one but yourself
And even sometimes you mess up
And then your back in the pit of hell
Till then I will walk alone till the sun sets on the arch
Till the warm sand underneath my feet grows cold
I will walk through the night never wavering never stopping
Step by step tell I reach a different world
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Killing Thoughts
PoetryKilling Thoughts is a poetry book. I use it to express my feelings. Some poems have different rhyming patterns because I'm experimenting with different things. Hope you enjoy it!