HE'S MY EX, daniel seavey

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user1 cheater cheater

user2 Ew dirty fingernails 🤮

user3 LOL clean your nails 💀

seaveydaniel Yea I know I have crusty nails it's from playing guitar srry

user4 Where is Ariella

user5 ur stupid if u lost ella again 😴

user6 canceled

user7 omg can y'all leave him alone?!? he did nothing wrong

user8 fuckboi hours 😂

user9 Who was the girl 👀

user10 DATE. ELLA. PERIOD.

user11 ummm 🤔

user12 you're lucky you're cute pal

user13 i miss you 🥺

user14 can i have that picture?

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we stare at each other for a while once he answers the facetime call.

he clears his throat, "hey.. ariella."

"hi daniel."

i take a moment to look at his features. he looks... tired. he has bags underneath his eyes; there's no trace of happiness on his beautiful face and i hate myself for being the reason of its absence.

"i'm so sorry," he whispers, a single tear sliding down his cheek.

"please don't cry. i'm sorry too."

"i truly am an idiot. i really thought you would say yes, but honestly why would you? God i'm stupid," he speaks to himself mostly.

"stop that. you're not stupid. you had good intentions... i just hope you understand why i said no."

he nods slowly, "i do."

there's an awkward pause at the irony of his words. we make eye contact and slowly burst into laughter.

"too soon?" he asks once the laughter dies down.

"just a bit."

he smiles a little, "i... i'm sorry for everything, ella. for kissing another girl mainly. i don't remember the moments leading up to it but after it happened i freaked out. i think i may have had a panic attack and jack helped me because he goes through similar stuff. it was pretty bad..." his voice gets quiet.

"i feel terrible. i should have stayed like you wanted so that we could talk about it, but i ran. i was scared daniel. all i could think about was escaping," i explain, feeling guilt washing over me.

he sighs, "i know. it hurt.. waking up and seeing that you left in the middle of the night but i'm not mad. i just miss you."

i think carefully about what to say next. there's something that has been on my mind since i arrived back in l.a. i talked about it with christina and willow and they both gave me some good advice. i decide that it's time to be completely honest with daniel.

"dani, you know i love you right?"

"yes. why?"

i bite my lip, "i think.. i think that maybe we rushed into this too fast. we hoped that things would fix themselves and now we're here. and i know it's mostly my fault for saying no and... my fault for not being ready to trust you yet."

"oh."

"what i'm trying to say is, i think we should hold off on us until you finish tour."

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