HE'S MY EX, daniel seavey

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ariella

okay.

that's the last thing daniel said before hanging up the facetime call.

clearly he did not agree with me.

and i understand why it upset him, but i was really hoping he'd see it from my point of view.

i'm starting to think that when i said wait he heard stop.

it's been a week since that conversation. i've tried texting him but he's left me on read every single time.

i'm just going to have to talk to him once they get back in l.a. which would be tonight. they have a few days off before they begin touring in asia so they decided to come home, just in time for halloween.

i love halloween, and everyone knows it. it is definitely one of my favorite holidays and i can't wait to go to a party that i've been invited to.

one that the why don't we boys were invited to as well.

i know daniel won't come see me after their flight lands, and i don't think going to the airport is the smartest idea. so i'll just corner him at the party and talk to him then.

it's funny how i was the one running away from talking at first and now daniel's the one running away.

i keep getting lost in my head, overthinking every single thing that has happened over the last few weeks.

what if i said yes instead of no?

we certainly wouldn't be in this situation, but that would have been such an irrational decision.

still though, it's my fault we're here. i'm the one who wants to wait until he finishes touring to start up anything serious.

most of that is just me losing fight to demons of the past coming back to haunt me...

i think that not knowing what he could do on tour is my biggest issue, which shows once again that i can't trust him quite yet.

i don't think he realizes how much he ruined me the first time around; and honestly no one can blame me for being too careful.

but still i blame myself.

and i won't shake this feeling until daniel and i come to terms with everything.

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(a/n: ew filler chapter. i know it's boring but it sets up the next chapter and gives more insight to how ella's feeling so yeahhhh ☺️)