It was her | h.s

24

Harry Styles

Half an hour had passed and me and Ni were still sat with our backs against Raelynn's door.
I totally get why she doesn't want to speak to me, but I need to explain to her why I did it.

"Hey Haz. We should probably go." Ni says while patting my shoulder and standing up.

"Y- you go. I'm gonna stay a bit longer."

"Okay mate. I'll come check on you in a bit oaky?"

"Ok. Cheers."

I watch Niall disappear down the hall. I pinch my eyes shut and rest but head on the back of the door as I deeply exhale.

I just couldn't help but remember the look she had in her eyes as I was about to kill her. She looked like her father. And that's what I needed to tell her about.

She had to know about the gang. I know it would be a lot for the poor girl to take in, but the longer I leave it the worse it would get.

And she was leaving in a couple weeks. I didn't want her to leave without the knowledge that her dad wasn't coming back.

Ever.

I don't feel bad for what I did to her dad, only because of what he did to me.

"Raelynn. Please open the door. I know you're there because I can hear you shuffling around." I say as my voice was shaky.

"Harry. Go away. Who are you with?"

"N- no one."

"Why would I speak to you alone. And for that matter why would I speak to any of you? You're all the same."

"That's not tru-"

I feel the door open behind me causing me to fall back slightly. I stand up and pull my shirt down.

"Harry. Go away." She says while not making eye contact with me and biting her nails.

"Raelynn please. I need to tell you something. It might not be something you want to hear but you need to know."

"I said go away." She looks at me at this point. Her eyes were red and puffy, still filled with tears. I couldn't help but feel bad. I just upset someone I cared about and I hated it.

I never normally care about people. It's just not my thing. But she was different. I didn't know how, she just was.

"Raelynn."

"WHAT" she snaps back

"I get why you'd be angry with me-"

"Oh I'm not angry Harry. Well a bit. But what's upsetting me most is that I'm now afraid of you. To be honest I have been the whole time, but this just made it worse."

"Why are you afraid of me?" I say with a lump in my throat.

"You don't laugh. You grabbed my throat the first time we met, you're so tall and you use it agains my vulnerability, you literally watched me while I was in the bathroom, and what's the other one? Oh yeah. You almost fucking killed me."

I just stood there and stared at her. I didn't know what to say.

"Okay. Wishing this next week before the show. You come up to me and let me know when you're ready to hear what I have to say okay?"

I don't know why I did that. Normally I'm the one giving orders but I let it go just this once. I was tired and didn't want to fight anymore.

I don't say anything else. I just walk back to my room as she shuts the door. Well, slams it anyway.

As I walk back into the room I see all the boys and kirsty in a circle except Niall looking over a phone.
They all quickly hide it when they notice I walk in. Ni looked really guilty.

"What's all this about?"

"Nothing." Lou says as Zayn, Liam and Kirsty exchange eye contact.

"I said. What's happening."

"And I said. Nothing."

Niall just looked at me with nothing but sadness in his eyes. He looks guilty.

I needed to find out what was happening.

And I needed to find out soon.

Al I could think about right now was Raelynn and the look in her eyes.

She reminded me of her dad.

Which reminded me of my family.

I needed to go out and take a breather. So I left and went to the bathroom.