It was her | h.s

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Harry styles

I'm in the bathroom right now. Sat in a cubicle. By myself. Crying.

No it wasn't about the whole Raelynn thing. Well. Maybe a bit. But it was the look in her eyes as I nearly took her life. I didn't lie to Lou about what I said.

I really did care about her

Sure go ahead. Laugh or whatever. I know I haven't known the girl for long. I don't give a shit. I knew her eyes lit up whenever she spoke about something she was proud of, I knew she was brave, I've only ever seen her cry when I almost fucking killed her. I knew she was resilient and tried to not let what you say get in the way, I knew she enjoyed being here because it's something she's always wanted to do, I knew how much she loved her dad, I knew majority of the things about her, when I made eye contact with her on stage during rehearsal I knew that I would be able to spot her in a room crowded full of people. And what I hate is that I almost took all of that away.

I felt bad for letting the boys down. I really did. But at the same time, I'm not going to kill someone I care about or am starting to care about.

And the other reason I was crying was because I knew either way she was going to die. The boys were going to do something. I dug myself in this hole far too deeply and now I can't get out. My life was a shit show.

My mum and brother were murdered right in front of my eyes and I missed them both so much. I know.. shocker right? The soon to be famous Harry styles who spends his days doing cocain and plotting to kill someone... actually has feelings?

I step out of the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror, my eyes are red from where I've been rubbing them and my nose is runny.

I hear the bathroom door slam open and hit the wall.

"Shit that was loud." I hear Ni cuss making me chuckle because he scared himself.

"What are you doing here."

"I need to tell you something." He says while grabbing both my shoulders for me to look at him.

"They've called enigmatic."

My heart sinks and my eyes fill with water slightly.

"When did they do that?"

"You know when you saw them all hovering over the phone and walked out again? Yeah. That was then."

I knew something was up.

"What are they gonna do to her?"

"I don't know styles. All I know is that it won't be good. And that Kirsty is involved."

Kirsty. Why the fuck was she even there

"W- why? How do you not know? You were in the room?"

"I couldn't hear shit they were saying. They were just texting and whispering and i heard enigmatic mentioned a fair few times. I came to tell you that I'm not involved in any of that shit."

"Cheers."

I still wasn't completely trusting of Ni considering he might have been told by the boys to come and tell me false shit. But the other half of me remembered that when I walked in on them Ni looked really guilty about whatever it is they were going.

"Where are they all now?" I ask.

"Still in the room. I'm not sure where Kirsty is though. She left shortly after you did."

"Don't worry. I'll find her."

I walk out the bathroom and start walking really fast towards our room.

I get there and kick the door down, startling all of them.

"Fucking hell styles couldn't you of-"

"What the fuck have you done." I say as I walk up to liam and scrunch his shirt up in my hands.

I hear Ni run in behind me and catching the door before it closed.

"I don't know what you mean" he says all innocently.

"Don't lie to me liam." I felt my eyebrows furrow and my jaw clench.

"I have no idea what you're on about. Have you gone mad?"

I slam his back against the wall with my hand around his neck, depriving him of any oxygen.

"L- let me g- go." He stammers while gasping for air

"Tell me what you're going calling enigmatic."

They all look stunned when I say that.

"How d-did you f-f-find out." Liam whispers

"Niall told me."

As I say that Ni puts his head in his hand.

Lou looks over to Ni

"You little shit." He goes over and slams his fist into Niall's stomach, knocking the wind out of him.

I let go of liams throat and as I do he immediately gasps and slowly regains his breath.

"Back off Lou. It wasn't his fault. It was yours."

"My fault? Styles I'm just finishing what you started. Just because you've gone all soft. What's happened to you?"

"Shutup lou." I go to punch him but Niall holds both my hands behind my back, restricting me from doing so.

"Ohhh yeah that's right. You care about the girl. Whoops. I forgot."

I don't make eye contact with him. I just stare at the floor in pure anger.

"And as for you Niall, little snake-"

"Shut up Lou. If you hadn't of contacted enigmatic who, may I remind you, is our fucking enemy, then none of this would have happened." He shouts from behind me

"No. That's where you're wrong. None of this would've happened if Harry had of just killed the girl any moment he had the chance. But no."

"You can't pin all this on me! You agreed to help me. So just give me time."

"We haven't got any fucking time styles! Or haven't you noticed? If you don't get rid of the chick within the next couple weeks then we have to perform. Infront of 10,000 people. So, we contacted enigmatic for a little assistance. Let's call it." Zayn pipes in

"You're all dicks do you know that. This was my thing to sort out. I just had you here to help me. Not take charge of anything."

"Too late." Lou says

I wanted to scream, cry, punch. Anything. I was so angry right now.

The only thing holding me together was Niall. I trusted him now knowing he didn't actually have to tell me anything. But like the good friend he is, he did.

"You're out." I say

"Out of what styles?"

"Decimation. After the show. You're out."

"That's fine. Not like we haven't got nothing to fall back on. We have something." Lou says

I didn't know what he meant. I wasn't threatened. I just wanted to punch each of them. Hard. But Niall was holding both my hands back.

We both watched all three of them walk out and slam the door behind them.

I turn around to Ni

"Where's Kirsty?"

"I don't know mate. All I know is that she was here when I walked passed."

I'll deal with her later on.

I just needed to speak to Raelynn tomorrow about her dad. She needed to know. She can't keep having the hope that her dads coming back. When he isn't. And I needed to tell her soon before the other boys did anything.