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Chapter 30 : Lucas!

~Sandra

....Late at night in the hallway of the hotel. I'm walking next to Lucas towards an exit after our...um...second makeout. I can't describe how I'm happy but yet depressed at the same time not because of Lucas...no he is amazing. I'm just very disappointed in myself. I thought I was getting through this, but the sharp pain in my abdomen reminds me I'm not.

I've been experiencing sharp pain since I left the bathroom they are all bearable so far so I don't tell Lucas anything.

"Why don't you want to read your mom's letter ?" , I ask turning to his direction. Thanks to the moonlight seeping through the windows we're passing I can make out his exposed chest and I can see the black ink that was injected into his skin to form a wolf tattoo. He said that he was planning to get rid of it,but I told him not to. I even traced its pattern with my finger. He said orginally the tattoo was to cover a scar he got when those guys who saw him as a threat were trying to kill him.

He also told me about his mom.

He told me how caring, loving his mom was. How his parents were sweethearts in high school and how she passed away.

She died of a congestive heart failure.

She also wrote a letter to Lucas before she passed, but he doesn't want to read it.

"I'm scared...that once I read that letter I'll let her go and I don't want to let her go", He answers sadly whilst looking down at his hands. "Every day I would go to her tombstone and wait for a knock or some kind of signal that she is alive in there and she wants me to dig her out, but I always leave the cemetery without her."

"I'm so sorry", I say rubbing his back. He shrugs and continues to look down.

" Yeah um....can we please change the subject I'm not ready to...continue the story."

"Of course, of course, I'm sorry I brought it up...", I clear my throat and say, "so... we're really leaving ?"

"Yeah"

"Oh okay...um where are we going now?"

"Well since you're still burning up and we ran out of ice, I know the place that will cool you down", He says, regaining his normal voice tone again

"Don't we need our clothes?"

"No, unless you swim with your clothes on" He says. We reach the door and he pushes it open, on the other side is what I am starting to dread. A square shaped body of water that is illuminating blue light. He leads us to the pool and he turns to me.

"I can't", I say before he can say anything. I haven't swam in water since I was 12. The accident has made avoid swimming at all cost. "I'm scared of water"

He looks at me, intensely knowing what I mean, "I'm sure there is nothing inside" , I shake my head inspite of him trying to assure me that the water is safe.

"No, I can't", I say with a shaky breath, my heart starts to beat fast again as I try to block any flashback.

"Then I don't know what to do, Sandra. What should I do ?"