𝑀𝒶𝓎 𝒲𝑒 𝑀𝑒𝑒𝓉 𝒜𝑔𝒶𝒾𝓃 (𝒶 𝐿𝑒𝓍𝒶 𝓍 𝒴𝑜𝓊)

eleven >>> moments

I stay seated on the edge of the mountain keeping my eyes on Raven as she stays kneeled at the head of Finn's body. Everyone disappeared after Finn had died. I still can't wrap my head around it. Clarke had a perfect opportunity to kill Lexa, but she didn't, why? But don't get me wrong, I'm glad she didn't but killing Finn like that...I can't believe she did that but it just proves that we've all changed. All of us. 

"Y/N-" I jump at my name turning around finding Clarke. I look away from her and back across to the grounder camp. All the grounders that were once there looked as if thought they vanished. "Y/N come on." 

"Come on what?" I say, staying seated where I am. 

"Lexa requested you again..." Clarke's voice trailed off. I pick up my head and look to the girl. "I don't have a choice." 

I stand up and turn my body towards the girl. "Don't have a choice? Clarke you've already made a lot of choices," I respond, walking past her. I don't know why I was rude. I felt weird. How I felt? I'm not sure. I was angry that Finn was dead. But at the same time...It was probably best Clarke did it rather than the grounders. A sigh escapes my lips as I get to the gate. There I find Bellamy with a gun waiting. Our eyes lock but neither of us say anything. Clarke comes from behind me and walks past both me and Bellamy. Bellamy follows her however and I follow close behind.

There's a large group of us. I have yet to see Lexa, somehow. I walk behind the wagon that carries Finn's body and where Raven sits with a gun on her lap. I keep my eyes on either the ground or on her, wanting to make sure she's okay. But for some reason I feel like she's mad at me for telling Clarke not to kill Lexa. And if I were in Raven's shoes I would be mad at me too. Only because it looked like Clarke had listened to me. 

"Hey, you doing alright?" I hear Bellamy ask behind me. 

"Yeah," Clarke responds. I keep my movements steady, but keep my ears open. 

"You did the right thing," Bellamy speaks again. There's a moment of silence between the two before I hear Clarke say, "Now I get to live with it." 

"You still think this truce is a bad idea," Clarke adds after a second. 

"I think we're wasting time on politics while our friends are in trouble," Bellamy respond. I'm a little confused as to what he's talking about, but still stay quiet nonetheless. 

"We need their army to get to mount weather," Clarke speaks sternly, almost angry like. Mount weather? What the hell is that? I kind of doze off at their conversation and focus on the ground in front of me. Until I stop walking a minute feeling Clarke wrap her arm around me, keeping me walking. 

"Why'd you stop?" Clarke asks. I turn my head looking to her. 

"I want to talk to Lexa," I respond and immediately get a head shake from Clarke. "Why? You're already going to give me over to her, that's why I was brought now, wasn't it?"