We'll be Fine Line ~ H.S

Five

I've been living here for two months and Harry keeps saying that it's going to get better but it never does.
I still have the same nightmare every night so i try to stay awake as much as i can.
Im honestly just so exhausted and I don't know for how much longer i can do this.
But i can't tell Harry he would just think that im weird.

Suddenly i hear a knock at the door.
- Come in i say and the door opens.
- Hi Louis says as he sits down on the end of my bed.
- Hi Lou i say and I give him a forced smile.
I can tell that he looks really concerned.
- What's wrong i ask.
- Oh nothing he says.
- You're a really bad liar i say.
- Im just worried about you i mean you look exhausted and half of the time you can barley walk down the stairs and you always look like you're about to faint.
- Oh Lou im fine i whisper but i can barley hold back my tears.
- You don't have to be act fine im not going to judge you, and i know that you act like you're okay so Harry won't worry about you but im not Harry.

I sit quiet and stare into the wall and hope that Louis will leave but when he doesn't i turn around and look into his eyes.
- I just can't do it anymore i can't pretend anymore i whisper and then i can't hold back my tears anymore and I start crying.
Its not a pretty cry that you see in movies.
Im just sobbing and crying and Louis holds me so tight he can.
I cry so much that his t-shirt gets all wet.

- I don't know how to live i say and Louis looks down on me.
- We're going to get you help it's going to be okay Louis whispers while he dry my tears with the back of his hand.
- No please don't tell Harry please you have to promise i say as i sit up again.
- Okay sweetie i won't tell Harry i promise just calm down Louis says as he pulls me into a hug again.

That day i fell asleep in Louis arms and it was my first night in four months that i didn't have a nightmare.

I slept for over two days because I was so exhausted and when i wake up again its morning and Louis is gone and im actually well rested for once.

I walk down all the stairs to the living room and see all the boys sitting on the couch.

- Morning Emeralda Liam says and I start to blush.
- Morning Liam i mumble and I sit down on the couch next to Harry.
- You're finally awake Harry says.
- Yeah i guess that i just needed some sleep.
- Some sleep? You slept for two days Niall says and Louis kicks his leg.
- Ouch what you do that for Niall says and now i can clearly hear that he's Irish.
- Just leave her alone Louis whispers.

- There's breakfast in the kitchen Harry says but honestly i don't have any appetite.
- Its fine i say but my stomach tought otherwise because it makes the loudest noise and all the boys looks at me.
- You know what i can go get something for you just stay there Louis says.
- Oh thank you Lou i say and he smiles to me.

Louis walks away and it gets awkwardly silent.

- So Emeralda what do you like to do Niall asks.
- Well i play football sometimes and i like to draw i say.
- You know Louis really likes football too and our backyard is the size of a football field so maybe you two can play sometime Zayn says.
- Oh i haven't played in ages i say.
- That's okay Louis is going to let you win zayn says and then he winks at me with one of his eyes. Harry looks up from his laptop and gives Zayn a confused look.
- Why did you wink at her he asks.
- No reason Zayn says but then when Harry looks away Zayn winks at me again.
I give him a confused smile before I get up and walk into the kitchen.

- Hey Lou i say and he looks up from the scrambled eggs he's making.
- Hi shorty he says with a smile on his lips.
- You're one to talk i say and he rolls his eye but then he can't help but to laugh.
- Zayn is acting really weird i say as i sit down on one of the chairs.
- What do you mean with weird Louis asks while he puts the scrambled eggs on a plate and puts the plate in front of me.

- Well i told him that i like to play football and he said that i should play with you because apparently you would let me win he said and then he winked at me twice like with his eye.
- Hmm yeah that is weird Louis says.
- So you don't know why he winked at me i ask while I start eating the eggs.
- Nope no idea Louis nervously says.

Wow he's a reallyyyy bad liar.