We'll be Fine Line ~ H.S

Eight

- But you promised i shout at Harry.
- Im sorry love but i just don't have time for this i have so much work right now he says.
- Then let me go by myself.
- You can't go to London by yourself what if something happens and i don't want you to be alone after what happened.

Of course with "what happened" he means that i put my head under water and almost drowned.
Yeah i told him.
Well i didn't really have a choice Louis made me.
He literally would not stop talking about it until I finally broke down and told Harry.
He cried so much and I've never felt guiltier.
He took me to the best psychologist he could find and i hated it so much.
Now i have to go there twice a week and according to Harry im on "suicide watch" which basically means that for the past three weeks he's been sleeping on the couch in my room.
Wich is really stupid because i didn't try to kill myself.

- Harry im going to be fine just please let me go home for a week or two.
- I could go with her i don't have that much work next week and I would actually really like to go to London Niall says.

I hade totally forgotten that all the boys were sitting on the couch and they probably didn't say anything because I've been shouting at Harry for like half an hour and it was really awkward for them.

- Harry please let Niall take me to London i say and by now im practically begging him.
- Fine but only for a week and i want you to text me at least twice a day so i know that you're fine Harry says.
- You're the best brother in the whole world i shout while i hug him.
- See you later I say before i go up to my room and as soon as i close the door behind me tears starts falling down my cheeks.

Im going home.

A week later im standing outside the house saying goodbye to everyone.

- Im gonna miss you so much i say to Louis before i give him a tight hug.
- If you need me or feel sad just call me and i will be on a plane before you know it Harry says and i smile to him.
- Thank you harry but im only gone for two weeks im sure that everything is gonna go just fine i say.
- Take care of yourself little one Louis says before I get in the taxi.
- I will i promise.
- Have fun Liam says and I can feel my cheeks turning red.
- Thank you i say.

Harry says something to Niall that i can't hear but i know that its serious because Niall doesn't smile or hug him.
He just nods and then he gets in the car.

- You ready he ask and i nod.
The car starts driving and I stick my head out the window.
- Bye guy's i shout and they all wave to me.
-  Niall? I say and he turns to me.
- Yeah?
- Thank you pulling me out of the pool i say while i nervously look down at my hands.
Niall doesn't say anything he just pulls me into a hug.

The rest of the trip is pretty quiet.
I mean its not like me and Niall have alot in common.
I don't play golf and we soon find out that i barely know any of the important football players so Niall tries to teach me but it doesn't go very well.
But when we get to the airport he protects me like i was the most precious thing in the whole world.
He holds my hand the whole time and make sure that no one takes pictures of me and when a group of fans comes running he makes sure that no one accidentally runs into me.

Its not until we finally sit down on the plane that he let's go off my hand.
- Are you okay he asks.
- Yeah im fine thanks for making sure i was safe.
- Yeah i was actually thinking about becoming a bodyguard i mean look at my body he says and I can't help but to laugh.
- Yeah you should totally become a bodyguard i say and he smiles.

The taxi drops us off outside the house and I suddenly get an unsettling feeling in my stomach.
- I don't think that i can do this i say while Niall are trying to carry in all our bags.
- Just take one step at a time its all going to be fine he says.

I take a few shaky steps up on the porch.
Okay deep breaths.
Its all going to be fine its just a house.
I feel Niall taking my hand in his and he looks down on me.

- You don't have to do this but I if you want to im going to wait here with you until you're ready he says.
- Im ready i say and with shaky hands i pick up the keys and unlock the door.
Its really simple i mean i have done it at least a thousand times but suddenly it feels like the hardest thing I've ever hade to do.
I remember the last time i unlocked the door.
It was the day of the accident and I hade just gotten home from school.

*Six months earlier*

I unlock the door and walk into the house.
- Mom,dad im home i shout while i put away my school bag.
- Hi honey are you hungry mom shouts from the kitchen and I walk into the kitchen to see her baking a pie.
- Yeah but you look busy so i can make the food myself i say while I start to look trough the fridge.
- We are going to a dinner with your dads friend and his wife tonight and you don't have to come but if you want to you can mom says and she gives me a soft smile.
- I don't have anything better to do so that actually sounds fun.
- Okay good now tell me all about the boy you like she says with a soft tone.
- He kissed me i say with a big smile on my lips.
- I see someone has a new boyfriend she teases me and I laugh.

*Six months later*

With tears falling down my cheeks i walk up the stairs to mom and dad's bedroom and as soon as i open the door I know that im home.
It even smells like home and all their stuff is still here so if i didn't know better i would just think that they are at work ,and for a second i lie down in their bed and close my eyes so i can pretended like thats true.
They are just at work.
They are coming home in a few hours and then we are all having dinner together.

I hear a knock on the door and a part of me hopes that it's them.
Even if it's impossible i still hope and pray that its them.

- Hi darling how are you holding up an Irish voice says and I open my eyes.
- Hi Niall i whispers and then i start crying again.
They are not coming home.