We'll be Fine Line ~ H.S

Twelve.

"Dear dairy Louis is avoiding me.
He left to go to London to see his family two days after he kissed me.
I tried talking to him but he just left in the middle of the night without even saying goodbye to the boys.
Harry says that he's probably coming back soon because their new song is being released in a week but im just so worried for him"

I feel so alone without Louis.
He's my bestfriend and I just wish that he would come home soon.
I really hope that he's okay.

I try calling him for the fifth time today but he doesn't answer.

*five days later*

I wake up at two pm and start to walk downstairs when i hear the boys almost shouting at someone.

- You should have called or texted us we hade no idea if you were okay or when you were coming home Harry says and I can hear that he's stressed.
- This song was your idea and now you almost missed the realse Liam says.
- Im sorry i just needed some alone time a familiar voice says and i hurry down to see Louis standing in the hallway.
- Louis i shout before i run up to him and give him a tight hug.
But he doesn't hug me back so i let go off him.
- You okay i ask.
- Yeah he says.
But Louis has always been a bad liar.
- Can we talk i ask.
- I don't really have time i need to talk to the boys he says.
- Louis please just come up to my room for a moment?
- I really don't have time he says with a harsh tone and all the boys look at him really confused.

I can tell that he's hurt so i walk up to my room again.
I think its best if i leave him alone.

A few hours later i climb up on the roof so that I can be alone for a while.
But when I get up there i see Louis sitting on the roof and at first I smile but then i see the tears on his cheeks.
- Louis?
He quickly wipes the tears of his cheeks.
I walk up to him and put my arms around him.
- Please talk to me i whispers into his soft brown hair.
- Im too tired to talk he says.
- Louis please i can't do this without my bestfriend I need you so please just tell me what's going on and i can help you.
- Oh my god you can't actually me that dumb he says and i quickly let go off him.

Thats not him.
He would never say that.

- I don't understand i say and you can hear in my voice that im hurt by the harsh words.
- I have loved you since the day you set foot in this house and you never noticed because you couldn't take your eyes off liam for a second and I've waited for you to notice me for over six months but im done waiting and im not going to be your second choice so im leaving again, i just can't stay here and see you everyday.
- Please don't do this, please don't leave i can leave but you have to stay i say but he just shakes his head.
- I don't want to stay he says and I can feel the tears threatening to fall down my cheeks.
- i don't love Liam it was just a stupid crush i promise.
- It doesn't matter i just can't do this anymore he says.
And suddenly i remember something.
- The song i mumble.
- What song?
- I want to write you a song, you said that it was about a girl who you love i say and suddenly all it all makes sense.
His weird behavior the song the reason why he kissed me.
- I already told you that i loved you so why are you so surprised he shouts so that I can hear him over all the traffic.
- It was about me i shout back.
- Yeah it was all about you, everything i did was about you...it was always you he shouts.
He angrily walks past me and starts climbing down from the roof.
- Lou please stay you can't leave me again i shout and the tears starts to fall down my cheeks.
- I don't want to wait around for you anymore, I've been waiting for six months im done he shouts before he disappears down the ladder and I fall down on the roof crying.

He left and i don't think that he's coming back.
I lost my bestfriend and it's all my fault.

Its so cold and windy up here but I don't care.
I just want my bestfriend back.

I can hear someone climb up and then i feel two strong arms wrapping around me and holding me tight.
- Its okay just let it out Niall whisper and I sob loudly.
- He left i whisper between the sobbing.
- I know Darling he says and he gently strokes my hair.

We sit up on the roof until its dark outside and im so cold that i can't feel my hands anymore.

- Let me get you into bed Niall whisper but i shake my head.
- I want to stay here.
- Oh darling you can't stay here forever and your so cold he says.

With shaky legs i start climbing down again.
I walk into the house with Niall right behind me and the second Harry sees me he gets up and quickly walks up to me.
- Where the hell have you been, i looked all over for you and called you like a hundred times he says and I can tell that he's worried but im too tired to do this.
- Not now Harry Niall says and harry just gives him a confused look.
- Louis left i mumble before I start walking up the stairs with a worried Harry after me.
- Yeah i know but what does that have to do with you disappearing he asks.
- He's in love i say while I get into my bed.
Im so cold.
- I don't understand Harry says.
- Niall can explain im not in the mood for this i mumble and I know that Harry understands that something is wrong because he actually leaves me alone.
And I must have been really really tired that night because despite the tears falling down my cheeks i soon drift off to sleep.