I dont know whats going on in the moment. Im feeling way more depressed than the last two months. And i dont really know why. I didnt changed my sights of the world, nothing happened to me, im just so fucked up. Yesterday night i cut myself again. The last time i did that was a long time ago. But I just needed it i think. I was laying in my bed and couldnt sleep. I got negative thougts and felt very bad so i did it. The last weeks im also acting more than before. Im somehow numb, depressed and fucking sad. In this Night i had a weird drea. In this dream i walked outside in the middle of the night. Everything was dark and it was heavily raining. I walked benath a tree in front of my house and tied a rope on it. Now my memories are a bit washed away, but I think i was hanging lol. I got big problems to find motivation to interact with people the last weeks so i didnt see much of my friends. Somehow goodnight see ya
(btw, im trying to do some poetry the next time, i just dont got much inspiration)
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Dead Souls Last Stop
PuisiHier werde ich ein paar Sprüche und Kurzgeschichten die ich mir ausgedacht habe auf schreiben. Mittlerweile werde ich auch ab und zu mal Tagebuch artige Kapitel schreiben Trigger Warnung: in diesem Buch können Themen wie Depressionen, Suizid, selbs...
