The reason I live (Lumity)

Chapter 14

Amity's POV:

"You lied to me?!" I could feel my anger building up every second, not the type of anger where you hate someone, the type of anger when the person you love lies to you. "I could have stopped it...I-if I was there I could've helped you" I could feel the tears starting to run down my face "I could have protected you.." by now my eyes were red and I couldn't stop crying "I DON'T NEED YOU TO PROTECT ME. I'm not weak.." my eyes went wide and it felt like someone just stabbed me in the heart. "I-I'm sorry...I'll go" I run out of the door, tears still falling down my face, it was raining and all I could hear was rain drops hitting the ground and the faint sound of Luz's voice.

By the time I got home I was drenched in water, I went to go open the door but my dad beat me too it. Oh no.. "Where the hell have you been" he yells pushing me down to the wet ground. "I-I was with Luz" his face filled with anger and disgust, "My daughter isn't a fagg0t like her" I stood back up, waiting for what happens next. "Listen here" he grabs me by the shirt and shoves me inside causing me to fall and hit my head, my vision started to go blurry "Stay away from that girl, she will be better off that way anyway, if I see you talking to her...I'll kill her" was the last thing I heard before I passed out.

"Luz?" How did I get here? Where am I? "What do you want" she seemed angry...no she seemed annoyed, "Luz I'm sorry.." she turned around to face me, her eyes where filled with pure hatred. "Listen Amity, I don't love you, I never have and I never will. Your dad is right I'm better off, I don't need you. Leave" my body felt numb and there was piercing pain throughout my entire body "Please Luz please don't do this to me.." she walked closer to me, our noses were touching "This is what you deserve" then she walked away disappearing into the distance, I wanted to go after her but she was right, I deserve this...

I jolt up, looking around me. I'm in my room...how did I get here? I looked over and saw a little note, "Hey Mittens, I saw what happened between you and dad it's ok, me and your brother are always here for you" I smiled, it was small but still a smile. Thank god I thought to myself, it was just a dream...I pull out my phone and look at it *57 messages from "Luz❤️"
"Amity I didn't mean to yell"
"Amity please"
"Amity I'm sorry"
"I'll leave you alone now.."
"Amity?"
"Hey are you ok?"
"Amity it's been hours why haven't you answered"
The messages seemed endless, s-should I ignore them? What if my dad sees them.. I clicked on her number and lingered over the block button, it hurt so much to do this but it was for her own safety...I clicked it and the messages all disappeared.

I sat on my bed staring at my floor, what if she talks to me at school? I'll have to ignore her...laying my head on my pillow I close my eyes and fall asleep. I woke up to my alarm for school, I wasn't really hungry so I skipped breakfast and just got ready for school. The day just seemed to go by slowly, it was quiet but not? I could hear the voices but I don't know what they were saying. "Amity?" I looked up, I just stared for a minute, not realizing that she said my name "oh Boscha, hey" she had this worried look on her face, I'm not used to her being friendly. I think willow helped her be herself, I'm happy for them. "Amity? Hello? I'm talking to you" Boscha was waving her hand in front of my face. "O-oh I'm sorry, what were you saying?" Was I spacing out again? "You seem off, did something happen with you and Luz?" Luz? Luz...I wonder how she feels right now... "What do you mean?.." I cringed at how my voice sounded when I said that. "Luz didn't show up to school, and you are spacing out every 5 seconds." Luz skipped school?...I miss her, I miss her smile. I miss how memorizing her voice is... "Amity this is what I mean, you're not ok." who gave her the right to tell me whether I'm ok or not "I'm fine Boscha" ouch...that sounded cold "Amity you're clearly not" I could feel the anger building up, why was I getting mad she's just trying to help me "Leave me alone" I tried to push past her but she held me in place. "Amity I just want to help you" she said a little more loudly gathering the attention of the other students. "I don't need help" I pushed her down to the ground without thinking. I realized what I have just done, I stood there standing for about a few seconds before the bell went off, I rushed off to class before Boscha could talk to me anymore.

Finally school was over, I tried my best to avoid everyone the rest of the day, it was raining again. It's been raining since last night, but it was ok since I enjoyed the rain. I plugged in my headphones and clicked on my playlist. The first song to play was Satisfied by Hamilton. I love musicals, Hamilton and Beetlejuice just happen to be my favorite. I didn't originally know about Hamilton and Beetle juice because its from the human realm, but Luz introduced me to some of the songs, she even gave me her old phone so I could listen to the music whenever. I opened my door and thankfully wasn't met face to face with my father. I went to go up to my room when my mother called my name. "Yes mom?" she was in the kitchen cooking dinner, I got a call from your school. They said you pushed on of your classmates in the hallway and that you weren't paying attention. "I-I'm sorry mom" she looked over at me "Amity, what's up with you?" I was confused, what does she mean? "What?" She slightly shook her head "You're normally not like this, is it because the Luz girl went back to the human world?" Luz what....my legs felt weak, instead of answering my mom I just went upstairs. as soon as I got in my room I fell to the floor and curled up into a ball, I cried until it was morning.

A/N: Haha...hiii, I'm SO sorry for making wait months for a new chapter. I am okay and I am alive, I just wanted to thank you guys, I didn't ever think my story would even get 100 views but 16,000 views?? It makes me so happy people are enjoying my story

Oh also, Let's talk about the F slur. If you aren't apart of the lgbtq please don't say it, it is indeed disrespectful and can hurt others deeply. Don't forget to be kind to others because you never know what they are going through <3