Murderous Love

Chapter 25

Later that day, we both got ready to go to the carnival. I put on a plain shirt and jeans while Tyler put on jeans with the bottoms curled up, converse, and a red plaid shirt with a white shirt before it. He wore his black studs and silver hoops , with his gold nose ring. His hair was slicked back and his hair was freshly faded on the sides. I felt bad after I saw him because I didn't get all dressed up nice. He walked up to me and held up my face, kissing me gently. "You look fine, come on let's go baby." I smiled and nodded following him outside. He opened my door for me and drove us to the carnival. Whenever we got there it was extremely crowded. Lines were almost out the entrance. Spending time with my boyfriend was all I was concerned about right now. He took my hand and drug me to the tallest roller coaster. There was twisting and turning upside down I felt like I was going to throw up afterwards. He then took me to the UFO which scared me so Tyler ended up holding my hand. He kept on begging for cotton candy. I swear he has such a sweet tooth. He also talks in this baby voice when he wants something. He can be so needy sometimes but I love it. I got him some cotton candy so he'd quit begging for it. Whenever he finished he took me to the ride where it swings you around and lifts you up in the air. I really never knew what that ride was called but I always ended up enjoying it. Especially since I could ride next to Tyler. Tyler lifted me up into the seat and buckled it in for me. Of course I could've done it myself but he insisted. Whenever everyone who was getting on was ready they started up the ride. It lifted everyone up and started moving. Tyler held onto my hand tightly because he was afraid of heights. His eyes were closed for the beginning but I spoke to him softly. "Open your eyes, don't worry. I got you." He opened his eyes slowly and only looked at me. His grip had gotten tighter each time we would go higher. I pulled his face close and kissed him gently. He got flustered and leaned away staring the opposite of where I was sitting. I let go of his hand and he turned around so quickly reaching for my hand. I was just playing until he actually started panicking. He took deep breaths and kept moving around. When I grabbed onto his arm with my right hand and then held onto his hand with my left. "Hey, Calm down. Calm down. I'm sorry, okay? Look, the rides slowing down baby." He looked at me with fear in his eyes. I didn't move my eyes off of him for a second. I wanted to make sure he was completely fine. I didn't want him to go into a panic attack. The ride finally stopped and Tyler fell to the ground. I wrapped my arm around his waist and helped him walk to the car. He seemed completely traumatized. I didn't know something like that would hurt him so badly. Whenever I was driving us home he wouldn't let go of my hand. His grip was tight and it was starting to give me a pain in my hand. We finally got home after a car ride home of complete silence. I tried getting out of the car but Tyler freaked out because I let go of his hand. I assured him that I would be quick. He nodded and looked down at his hands. I closed my door and went to go open his. He jumped out of the car and held onto my waist tightly with both arms. I wrapped mine around his neck to help him into the house. I sat him down on the couch while I brought him a glass of water. I sat on top of him looking him straight in the face. I held onto his hand and ran my fingers through his hair with the other. It's like he finally snapped out of it. He immediately pushed me against the couch holding both of my hands down. He began with kissing on my neck and then went to my lips. He first kissed then gently but it didn't last long. The kisses became more fierce and passionate. He kept going in for more I could barely get breathes in. I tried letting his grip loose to where I could try and hold him back but there was no way I could get him off. I just dealt with it. I became emotional because I couldn't deal with what he was doing. Don't get me wrong I love doing this with him but not after he scared me completely and hasn't even responded to me since we left the carnival. Tears started streaming down my face. I couldn't stop. Tyler seemed to notice because he stopped kissing me. I had closed my eyes because I couldn't look him straight in the eyes while he did that. I opened up my eyes and noticed he was looking away. He slowly got up and let go of my hands. I moved over and sat in the corner of the couch while he sat in the other. I tried making small talk but I just couldn't think of anything to say at the moment. That's when Tyler got up and said "Look.. I'm sorry. Goodnight." and left to go to the room. I watched as he walked away. I just couldn't say anything. I thought of things I could have said but nothing came out of my mouth. I just sat there in silence for a couple more minutes before going to the bedroom as well.