Time Changes Things

Chapter 4

(Mer POV)

I walked down to the locker room to change. I set my pager and notebook down on the bench and grabbed out my clothes. A pair of tight blue wash jeans and a fitted black shirt. Before I changed, I figured I should probably shower. I went into the shower and turned it on. I went back to the benches and grabbed my stuff in case someone came in. I set down my stuff and stepped into the scorching hot water. I let the water  run down my body for a few minutes. I thought about what Derek said to me. He still loves me. Me. I'm still surprised. I love him. It's bad how much I love him. I grab the soap and started lathering myself up. I grab my shampoo and conditioner and spread it across my head, massaging my head. I let the water wash away all the soap. I turned off the water and wrapped myself in a towel. I pulled on some panties and a bra and removed my towel. I grabbed my shirt and jeans and pulled them on. I looked and the mirror and decided it looked fine. I headed back to the benches and grabbed my purse and pager and applied some quick mascara. Right before I started walking out the door, my pager shrieked and I pulled it out of my bag. Code Silver. I had no idea what that meant, and figured it wasn't important.

(Der POV)

I walked back to my office and thought about what I admitted to Mer. I still love her. I don't love Addison. I don't want to keep putting this facade on, but I don't want to hurt Addison. I know she hurt me and it's kind of ironic, but that's 11 years of history down the drain. It's killing me to wake up next to her everyday, when the person I want to wake up next to everyday is always in the same building as me. My plans were to meet Addison at Joes tonight, but I need to be alone to think about my life. And how I should tell Addison how I feel about Mer. I arrived at my office and sat down for a while. I reminisce about all the times meredith and I were together. I smiled softly, just at the thought of her. I grabbed my brief case and head out the door. I walked down the hall, doing a brief check up on a few of my patients, and saw one of my old patients, whose wife passed away recently. I smiled at him and he just stared me down with a look that I couldn't determine. I got a bad vibe from that guy, and Walked outside when my pager went off. Code silver. I had a bad feeling in my gut. Code silver means there is an armed person in the building. I knew Addison was at the bar, but I don't think Meredith came out yet. I saw a ton of staff and patients get evacuated, none of them being Meredith. I saw Richard call the police from a distance. I walked over to him and Bailey as he got off the phone. "What's going on?" I asked. "There's an active shooter in the building. The FBI will be here in a minute with portable computers so we can look at the cameras." Richard replied. George, Izzie, Alex, and Cristina came running over. "What the hell is going on? Where Meredith?" They asked. "She's still in there." I whispered.