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18.I miss you

✯I miss you✯

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Where are you? and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain
Stop this pain tonight...

''I miss you, I miss you'' Luke quietly sang, sobbing. He was curled up in his bed crying on his pillow. He only listened to one song. Only one.

That song made him remember of him so much that it hurted deep down in his chest. It made him remember of the time they spent, which now was lost. Everything seemed like a dream, a twisted, dark dream. Luke wished he could wake up from this living nightmare.

School didn't make sense anymore. It didn't make sense because he couldn't see him there. He couldn't hear his sarcastic comments, his arrogant tone, his laugh which made him melt. He missed every single part of him.

He wished he could hate him, he wished he could get over him. He knew he wouldn't come back. He went to the hospital and talk to the nurse. She told him what happened, the mess he made. Luke didn't even know about his relationship with his father.Luke didn't even know him.

He didn't even know his favourite movie. Or his favourite book. Or if he had a middle name. And now, he would never know.

Liz was worried because Luke refused to leave his room, because he refused to eat, and because he refused to see Ashton and Calum. He didn't want them to see him like this, to stare at him with pity eyes. One day he will get over Michael, but not now.

He wondered where was he. Was he ok? Was he safe? Was he still alive? Where was he living?

Luke went to his house everyday after school. The house was empty. There was nothing inside. If he had enough guts, he entered the house from the window and sit down at Michael's bedroom floor. Well, what remained of his bedroom. Some posters on the wall and beers. It hurted like mad.

And what about 5 Seconds Of Summer? Luke couldn't be in the band without Michael. He just couldn't. Those band practices were on the past now.

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''Maybe we should go to the cellphone company and ask them for his new cellphone number'' Calum suggested, drinking his coffee.

Calum and Ashton were sitting down at the confortable couches in Starbucks, drinking a warm coffee after school. Of course, Luke didn't show up today.

''I dont think that's gonna work'' Ashton replied. ''Plus, if we do get his number he won't answer our calls Cal'' He sighed. He was exhausted of searching Michael. He was starting to feel anxiety all the time. He wanted to help Luke so bad but he didn't know if there was a way of helping him.

''I don't know Ash.. Maybe we should give up. If he wants to see us he'll come''

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''Well Michael that was amazing'' The woman said, catching her breath, covering her naked body with the white sheet. ''Yup it was.'' Michael replied, smirking. He got up and got dressed. ''Are you leaving already?'' He nodded.

She paid him 100 bucks. It was worth it.

It was a cold night, and Michael felt his cold hands, and his cold breath. He should have stayed. But he prefered going somewhere else.

Oh the lake, the beautiful lake. It was so cold on the shore but he didn't care at all. He dropped his guitar case on the ground and used it as a pillow.

The sand was cold, really cold. So was the person resting on it. He heard the peaceful noice of the water and fell asleep.