Chase Hudson Is Trouble

#24

So i quitted my extremely law wage job that caused me tone shit of stress and found another one in a library that actually pays decently. I'm gonna start on Monday so i got the rest of the week to be lazy at. So i travelled to my aunt house to have some free time away from my loud house . I'm being cozy alone under the blanket now and i like this so much so i'm gonna give u guys another chapter.

I just want to be warm, want to be loved and safe. Zack is the best guy i can think of that can give me all of this. But why? While i'm in his hand , hugged, loved and pampered. Why don't i feel the warmth. The same warmth i felt when i woke up surrounded by chase's limbs in that night we slept together. Why my heart is not beating? Where is the butterflies? Is it winter already?.

"Babe" zack said once he stopped hugging me "you coming to the Halloween party aren't you??" He asked while brushing his hair.

"I prefer not" i looked down "i need to catch up on alot of homework" i lied.

"Who prioritise homework over the Halloween ester ?" He turned towards me with a hand on his hips like a nagging mom "plus , you're my girlfriend now and i want to show you off" he smiled warmly and i felt bad.

I don't really wanna be seen or known as zack's girlfriend, not because i'm ashamed of him or anything. I just don't want chase to know For a reason i yet don't know. I don't want him thinking that i choosed zack because he hurted me or because he indirectly refused my feelings. I don't want him thinking that zack in my second choice. I mean zack is so kind and warm and he's gonna be the best boyfriend ever. I just need time to get used to having a boyfriend. The attention is alot for me. For a girl that's used to being alone surrounded by book and music. I've never been into a Halloween party. And the last time i dressed into a costume was before my father's incident. I'm stressed.

"I don't even have a costume" i tried with this excuse when the homework one didn't work.

"Getting a costume is the easiest part ester" he laughed and knelt infront of me. Touching my cheeks he said "you can dress up anything you want , you can hide behind a mask ,no one will know who you are , you'll be freed for the night" he looked me in the eyes and then on my lips . I knew what was gonna happen next so i looked away cutting him off.

He was a little bit disappointed but i'm not ready yet. He stood up silently and was about to leave when i spoke "okay" i said , he turned around questioning "okay, i'll go to the party with you" i smiled.

He smiled back and nodded.

"cool" he said.
"Cool." I said.

I grabbed my things and went out of zack's room , the boys were sitting on the sofa playing video games while zack was grabbing a drink from the kitchen.

"You leaving already ester?" Bryan asked while still focusing on the game "stay" he said "spend the night".

"Dude" Tristan spoke from the other controller "even if she spent the night you got nothing out of it" he laughed.

"Fuck off stupid" he kicked him in the legs to distract him from the game "i'm trying to be the wingman here".

"You clearly can't be wingman for yourself so how the fuck are you trying to be the wingman for zack" Tristan barked while beating Bryan in the game.

"At least i'm not cock-blocking bastard" Bryan barked back and i don't think this about me and zack anymore.

"Ugh" Tristan rolled his eyes "it happened once dude stop being so pity about it".

"You still here?" Zack took away my attention from these two dorks "you want me to drive you home?". He asked.

"I would love too" i smiled "it's super cold outside".