Chase Hudson Is Trouble

#28

It's 12am so he's probably up. That's why i'm literally banging on his door and jhonny should open up if he want to do himself a favour.

"Fuck" i swore under my breath standing infront of Johnny's door barely containing myself. This situation is so messed up. And chase seeing me hanging out with zack just the morning we had sex is messed up as well. I sighed looking out of the big windows of Johnny's building. "Such a beautiful building" i sighed.

Few second later he opened.

"I'm fucked" i said with no hesitation. His face was a little bit confused and his eyes were puffy with sleep i obviously woke him up.

"You mean literally?"he grumbled and opened the door wider so i can slip in.

"You can say that" i stuttered "but no not in this contest".

"What do u mean?" He asked "you did the nasty with zack??" His mouth was wide open.

"I did the nasty" i whispered "but not with zack". His mouth dropped to the ground.

"Please don't say it" he was shook.

"Chase" i said with my hands covering my face.

He went silent. I hate this. I know i did a huge mistake.

"What you going to do now?" He asked after we sat ourselves on the sofa.

"I went to talk with zack this morning" i said "about what happened"

"And?"

"I did not say anything" i whispered "it was not the right moment".

"So?" He asked "what now?"

"I don't know" i looked down.

"Are you going back home to the boy you literally fucked yesterday and be like" he ushered with his hands in the air frantically "yeah!! No!" Johnny was serious. "I still have a boyfriend so let's forget that happened".

I sighed next to him because i know deep inside i don't regret what happened with chase but i regret the time and circumstances. My flower was taken in a stormy night , wasn't the perfect day to pick flowers.

"What should i do?"

"You should ditch chase" Johnny said seriously "he's not good for you"

"And how do you know what's good for me" i bowled.

"It's my opinion" he screamed back "can't anybody have an opinion but you".

Silence took over for a few seconds and then we bursted in laughters.

"Fuck tiktok" i said "and fuck chase hudson".

My way home was way longer then intended. I've actually considered staying with Johnny for a few days but he didn't let me .that asshole. He told me that i have to deal with it while it's hot and i don't freaking know what he ment.

"Beat the iron while it's hot ester" he said while closing the door on my face.

Sigh. "That asshole" i mumbled again when i reached the corner of my street. Everything was normal just like i left it 6 hours earlier. But i know nothing is the same anymore.

I climbed the stairs of our building thinking about the look chase will give me. I know he's gonna give me the silence treatment like everytime. Or worst he'l hurt me with words. I mean , i kinda deserve it. I'm a trash. But thinking about it now. I wish i've never left his side this morning. Or i wish i never followed him last night. Or maybe i wish i never met him at all.

I reached the apartment door and inserted my keys in the lock. The door opened slowly and dramatically as if i'm entering a haunted house like the movies where Dracula is waiting for me to end your life.

Dracula was indeed waiting for me because the moment i entered the apartment i cough sigh of the dark figure sitting on the kitchen counter glaring in my direction. I freezed for a second. Chase's face did not in anyways looked healthy. His eyes were mad red and his face looked so pale but angry and sad at the same time. I couldn't look at him more so i hurriedly scrambled towards my room.

"Ester" he growled so deep i actually felt fear in my stomach "don't fucking run from me". He said and i heard the chair land on the floor of the kitchen. But i did not stop. I immediately entered my room and closed the door behind me seconds before he reached for it.

Silence. Sweet silence but just for a second. Loud thumbing on the door started to fill my eardrums. Hitting the door so hard i thought it's going to break.

"Fuck ester" he hit the door more with his fist "don't fucking shut me off".

I didn't answer. I couldn't answer. Because i myself didn't want this to happen but what i did was absolutely wrong. Everything that happened from yesterday to this day was absolutely chaotic. I did not have the set of mind to deal with now. I just want to shut everything for a second and crowl on my bed and sleep it off.

When i finally thought he's gone and he finally gave up talking to me. He bursted out of the bathroom door.

I didn't have the time to think or to react, not until i got slammed on the door so powerfully my breath bursted out of my lungs. His hand curled around my neck so gently but cut my breath out on a way that it won't kill me but will absolutely kill me in other means.

"I told you not to push me off" he growled with his dark eyes inches away from mine "don't cut me off and deal with it on your own" he said. And i looked him in the eye.

"Chase" i said with teary eyes "i don't know what to do".

"You could've stayed in bed this morning" he said while tightening his grip on my neck and caging my body with his.

"I can't" i stuttered barely containing my tears dropping on my cheeks "the guilt is killing me". I breathed out and at that word he suddenly let me off stepping two steps behind leaving me breathing heavily missing the intense feeling of his hand in my neck.

"So what about me?" He asked and his dimentor shifted so visibly i can barely see the angry chase anyone. But i can see the hurted one. "You left me this morning and went back to your little cringe boyfriend after we literally fucked last night" he mumbled.

"I was going to break up with him" i screamed.

"Did you?" He screamed back "did you break up with him?" He looked me in the eyes and smirked miserably "because what i saw did not seem to me like breaking up".

"I was about too" i started.

"I guess there is a but" he said.

"He was not in a position to add to his sorrow" i finished "he's sad about his friend and i did want to add up to his fire" i looked down.

"It's absolutely wrong to make you little zack sad huh?" He rolled his eyes.

"Chase you don't understand" i rolled my eyes back "what we did was completely utterly wrong-" i didn't finish because he cought me off guard with his lips kissing me deliciously while grabbing my hair so strong i moaned. He then cut me off in a second.

"You can shove that sentence you just said down your ass" he smirked and he started backing off towards the bathroom door again "you can't deny you want me" he smiled and my heart bursted in glitter. His  voice echoed in my room but he was gone long before then.

I looked around like what happened now is just another dream of mine. I can't deal with this anymore. I layed on my bed for what feels like forever and sleep took over.