~Anxiety~Christian Akridge AKA Christian Leave (fanfict)

Chapter 22

Kayla's P.O.V
I spend the night at the hospital and got about 20 minutes of sleep. Someone came in to check on me every 30 minutes, and given the circumstances, was anyone really expecting me to sleep?
My parents came back to visit me in the morning, and they had to talk with a doctor about different ways to help me. I do have a small say in what kind of treatment I get, but I am supposed to take the doctors recommendation into consideration. I can't help but think that if I was dead, like I was supposed to be, none of this would be happening. I don't really care what I have to do. Being alive doesn't mean anything to me anymore. I can't get better and I won't get better, no matter how much therapy I go to.
Of corse, the doctors recommendation is a 2-month clinic that is in New Jersey were I would have to stay there with other people who are "on the same path as me". They really limit the amount of contact with the outside world there, other than family. You were allowed to have one phone call per week with your family and no one else. I don't mind the idea. Actually, I wouldn't mind any idea they had for me. My parents seemed pretty into this idea and were willing to send me, and of corse, I didn't resist.
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Later that day I was allowed to go home, but my phone was taken away and so was my lap top. I have two days until my parents were going to drive me out to New Jersey. I read an entire book in that time since I had nothing else to do, but a lot of my time I spend just laying in bed looking at the ceiling. I packed a bag full of clothes and anything I needed for my 2-month stay.
Tuesday morning came faster than I thought it would. As I was rechecking my bag to make sure I had everything, the doorbell rang. "Kayla, it's Christian," my moms yelled. I run down the stairs and step outside to talk to him. "Hi, I. Uh- heard you were leaving today," he says awkwardly, "I thought I should come say goodbye to you, but if you're busy th-"
"No I'm not busy," I interrupt. "Oh, well um I guess I just wanted to make sure you know that um...you will be missed, a lot, I am leaving my aunts house in a few weeks so I don't know when I will see you next, but I just wanted to tell you," he pauses and bits his lip for a second, "I love you, and I don't think I told you that enough."
"Christian, I need you to do something for me while I am gone," I ask. "Anything, I-I can be here when you come home, I can come pick you up, anything, " he snaps his head up and looks me in the eye. I sigh, "Christian, I love you too much to make you wait two months for me. You don't deserve that. You don't deserve to have to go thought all of this for me because I don't even deserve you. I want you to find another girl. I want you to find a girl that you deserve, not me. There were hundreds of girls in that room when I met you and any of them would love to have you,"
"You really don't get it," he frowns, "your the one that I love and there is no other girl in this world that I would rather be with than you," his anger builds up and I can hear it in this voice. Before I know it he grabs me around the waist and kisses me hard on the lips. My parents could walk out any second now, but I don't care. I put my arms around his neck and pull him closer, and I am immediately taken back to our first kiss, at the meet and greet. "I love you," I manage to say between kisses. "I love you too," he replies. Then he pulls away, "and I am ganna miss you so much,"
I smile a little for the first time in a while. "Bye Kayla," he says, as his voice cracks ever so slightly. "Bye Christian," I reply, and with that I watched him turn around and jog across the street to his aunts house. When he got to the driveway, he turned around one more time and waved. I waved back, already feeling tears stream down my face. Then I watched as he turned back around and continued walking into the house.
I watched him until the last minute when I saw his door close. And once again I couldn't help but think, what if that was the last time I saw Christian. Only the last time I said it, I was ok with that thought. This time, the thought scares me.
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Yes I know a another short chapter!! I am so sorry I try to update as much as I can but I am so busy during the week:( anyways thank you so much for reading and please keep it up😉