Levi Ackerman Oneshots (Levi x Reader) [Completed]

▪︎ Arms of The Forgotten. (Levi x Reader)

idk if these are triggering themes but its 9pm, I'm tired, and I wanted to write about being held by Levi
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My legs sling around with no control, body shaking. I had fallen to my knees one hundred times, still managing to get up.
Everytime I would, though, I would just fall back down.

The fields were empty, full of grass. No cadets were in sight, no humans, no hope. I had lost it all. In my life I had wished to be nothing but alone, at peace with myself. Now that I look upon the empty, blood-stained hills, I feel it. Regret.
Standing up to my horse, so shaky the horse even seemed concerned, I jerked myself up by the straps and plopped on the saddle.

She stirred a bit, then calming down.
I took one last look. One last look at freedom beyond the walls, a satisfied life I would never know. The life I wanted my children, and their children to lead on.

Then I turned back, crossing my destiny with a stoic face. Why?
The love of my life had gotten injured, worse than I by ten fold. His face, hands, arms, chest, everything. We spent weeks nursing him back to health, but he just could not come along on this mission.
I took his role, there was nothing I could have done.

Innocent lives, taken, no words said. Screaming sorrows and swear words while being eaten alive, apologizing to God for whatever they had done to deserve this dreadful fate. People who had never seen worship something, begged for a light. A reasoning in the beyond.
Watching the lives drain from those poor eyes made me feel something. Hopeless.

Hopeless that I was trapped here forever, betwixt the walls of those that confine us, both literally and figuratively.
The military police had it out for the Scouts, now that Erwin was gone no one had the rank to protect us. I did not want to lose this life.
I wanted to escape, free, living with my lover along the coast of the beach for the rest of our lives. To finally say 'I'm done', for good.

Tears streamed my face as I arrived to head quarters, sorrow stained my cheeks. I had arrived alone. I scanned the fields for what felt like days hoping I would hear the sound of a cadet screaming, hoping, but nothing. Only death.
How I had survived I could not tell you. I once had I titan bite it's grimy teeth into my leg, only to have it throw me to the ground in disgust.

No one had questioned it, not even after the stunt Eren had pulled, exposing himself as a titan shifter.
Quickly I fell of the horse, limping into the medics which were awaiting people from my mission. Once they saw me, I was swarmed.

Stitched up, patched, and bandaged, no one questioned why I had been by myself. I took nearly 50 cadets with me.
I cried as they touched me, not because it hurt, but because I lost.

I lost the war with myself and with the creatures that held my life in their hands. How could I have been so stupid?

Exiting the room I made my way up, watching all the cadets eye me with concerns. I heard them asking where certain people are, panicking, crying even. I stopped right at the brink of the stairs, in front of the entire mess hall.
"Everyone is dead. Wish your goodbyes in another lifetime."

With that, I left. I had to make it up to our room and lie down, I needed rest so badly it was burning my bones.
I could still hear crying as I knocked upon the door, swiftly opening it after. When Levi took full gaze of me, he roughly stood up, running over to me. He held me by my arms, hugging my tightly. Wordlessly, I picked me up, lying me down on the sofa.

Tears fled more from my eyes as he scanned me, up until his silvery orbs met my own. "What happened?"
I tensed up and fell back, relaxing into the cushions. "I'm not sure. One moment we were travelling, the next I woke up in and empty, blood-spattered field."

He nodded, taking my hand into his own. I was dirty, but he didn't seen to notice when his thumb lead up to wipe away my tears.

He leaned down to me, hugging me. As soon as I breathed his scent, I felt a million waves of happiness wash over me. So much hate and grief built up, I needed this. I needed him.
His hand cascaded over my hair, softly pulling me closer to him. "It's okay, (F/N), you did your best. You did it well, too."

I sniffled into his shoulder, nuzzling.
He was never very good at comforting, but all I needed was his smell, his skin, his contact, I just needed it.
He fell beside me, holding my limp body still into his arms. Soon I would fade into darkness, sleeping soundly in the arms I longed for.