I'm drowning in my tears.
Beating myself up til' I'm blue.
Cutting out layers of me,
That I find useless.
I'm a shell.
A hollow one.
With no room for nothing but air.
I'm a shallow human.
With impulsive thoughts so crazy,
Overflowing with negativity.
Intrusive thoughts that lead me,
Feeling more like death than alive.
I'm the worst kind of human there is.
The type that knows no peace.
Whose mind is never quiet.
Who rages war on everything I see.
I turn everything into coal.
I turn love into hate.
And discomfort.
I rage hell with every word I speak.
I'm a hell hound angel.
Hell bound to the devil's slick tongue.
No need for me to find love.
No need for me to search.
I leave nothing but trails of,
Disappointed men.
With broken hearts,
And heavy eyes.
Hollowed out just like me.
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PoetryTired of trying to be everything. Trying to be perfect. Wrong paths and wrong people and missed opportunities. Am I letting my mental illness take over my life? A look into the mind of a BPD, Anxiety ridden woman. With no identity but her Panic. W...
