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"GOOD morning, hao." jun said when i went into his room. i just smiled and went to the left side of his bed to fix his vitals. jun frowned, "are you in a bad mood? or...?"
i shook my head, "just thinking."
jun cocked his head to the side, "about what may i ask?"
i shrugged and looked over at the boy, "random things."
jun chuckled lightly and patted the spot next to him. i complied and sat next to him, gently laying on his chest as he played with my hair quietly. i don't know when we got so close or got to the stage where we're so comfortable with each other, but this felt like home. i feel so safe in jun's arms, it's so... comforting.
"hey, jun?" i asked, looking up to see jun smiling at me, "can i ask you a question?"
jun hummed and i continued, "say if you were to die tomorrow—"
"you're kidding me, i can die tomorrow." jun interrupted with a sarcastic tone. i glared at him and swatted his arm that's playing with my hair, "if you were to die tomorrow, what would you regret?"
jun stopped playing with my hair, causing me to look up again and saw him thinking. his brows were furrowed and a slight dimple appeared on the left side on his lips as he pursed his lips in concentration. jun shrugged. "the generic things: not telling my parents and junfeng i love them, not telling jihoon and mingyu how much i treasured them, et certera. how about you?"
i felt my heart drop when he didn't mention me. i was hoping that he'd say something along the lines of 'not telling you i treasure you', but no. nothing. well, maybe i'm just not as special to him as he is to me. i sighed. i was suddenly reminded by my promise to chan, and i decided this would be a good time, would it?
"probably not telling someone how i really feel about them." i blurted out. jun looked down at me and our eyes met. "who's that, uh, special someone?" he asked.
i opened my mouth then closed it. should i? should i not? jun gently massaged my hair and smiled, "you don't have to tell me if you don't wanna, you know that?"
i nodded and returned a smile, "please... please don't say anything until i finished, please."
jun frowned but nodded.
i cleared my throat and sat up straight so that i'm facing jun instead of laying on jun. "i, um, i know we didn't know each other for long, but i've been falling for you, jun. i know you don't have long to live, and i don't want to regret that i didn't tell you i love you when i had the chance. so i'm saying it now, wen junhui. i love you. yes, i fell quickly for you, but please know that my feelings are genuine and—"
i felt a pair of soft lips on me that stopped me from talking. my eyes widened, trying to understand what's happening. and then i just melted. i melted into jun's lips and wrapped my arms around his neck as he rested his hands on my hips. we kissed for a little while longer until we had to break for oxygen.
i breathed heavily as i placed my forehead on his. i chuckled lightly and jun followed suit.
"i love you, too, hao. don't worry," he said, kissing my nose and making me giggle.
"are you two lovebirds done yet?!"
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surprisingly, we never exchanged phone numbers despite how 'long' we knew each other. we never had a form of communication except for actually talking face to face. we exchanged phone numbers just before i left for home and i couldn't stop smiling on the way home.
'home'. such a vague word. is my home the flat i rented with chan? is my home in china? or is my home... jun? honestly, home is such a dubious word without a direct definition, it confuses me almost all the time.
"what's got you all smiley today, hyung?" was chan's first question to me once i got into our shared apartment. i smiled at him, "i kissed him."
chan stood up immediately from his seat and looked at me with wide eyes, "him as in wen junhui hyung him?"
i nodded and chan practically tackled me in a tight hug, "oh my god, hyung! i'm so happy for you!"
just as chan released me, i felt my phone vibrate through my back jeans pocket. i grabbed my phone and instantly felt a smile stretching through my face. "is it junhui hyung?" asked chan, wiggling an eyebrow at me.
i rolled my eyes, "it's jun hyung. and yes, it's him. i'll catch you later!"
unknown number hey it's jun
miinghaao hey!
set unknown number name to junnie?
yes no
junnie did u get home safe?
miinghaao yup
miinghaao how are u?
junnie p dead :D
miinghaao jun >:(
miinghaao don't say that
junnie jus sayin
miinghaao anyways
miinghaao i can't wait to see u tmr!
junnie samsies heh
miinghaao gtg jun
miinghaao i'll talk to u later
junnie bye hao
junnie i love you
i tensed up and felt my fingertips gracing through the keyboard and i smiled as i sent the text.
