Short Stories & Poetry

Worth It (NaNo Day 22)

Oh how the time flies
just watching it go by
years pass, and I'm just here
sitting and thinking
same as before
don't wanna change
just stay the same
but time stops for no man.

Requests denied, I'm so
changed it hurts: look
different, sound different,
act different but still
the same in my
mind. Yet I can't
love me the same,
will they still love me the same?

How you love me
more than I love me
still confuses the hell
outta me, but how it makes
my heart beat faster,
nerves, returned love,
terror that it could be
possible.

Me? Why me?
What did I do that's
so special I've
made lines
across your heart,
become a person
you could ever hope
to be like, in any way.

Made no efforts, I'm
just a tortoise with a
softer shell than most and
I thought I'd hidden it,
thought I'd made barriers
but here I am still falling
for these beautiful strangers
who love me for who I am.

I'd love to see the face
on my family and friends
if they just knew
the vulnerable things I've
said there, that I've never
even tried to say to them.
But it's not a replacement,
just another place to call home.

Can I learn to love
me like you love me?
I don't know.
I don't know.
But I try because
you make me believe
just a tiny bit
that maybe I'm worth it.

Just a tiny bit,
a tiny sliver of hope
in the void
I sometimes feel.
You can't fix it, can't
do more than speak.
But your words are
bandages on these deep wounds.

And I can't apologise
enough, for me or
say thank you
enough, for you
and I'll say it over
and over until
I can speak
no more.