Floating Away With You

Chapter 20- Memories

(Your POV)~

Something about Satori seems off.
He doesn't let himself have fun anymore.
He doesn't care as much as he used to.

It's been a week since we yelled at each other, and to be honest, I'm over it.

I personally don't think it was a big deal.

Sure, I'm a little shook about getting back memories of my dad, but it won't put me into a life changing depression.

He's beating himself up isn't he.

Of course he is.

"(Y/N), I'm telling you now, if I murder Tomoyo don't be surprised." Satori groaned, pacing back and forth, rubbing his eyes.

"Why are you even talking to him? Don't you hate that guy?" I ask.

"I know. I do hate him but I just can't bring myself to say no. I mean he needs to talk to someone and, I don't know, I just I feel like he needs help" He answered frustrated.

The joys of being too nice.

"Why the sudden change though? A few months ago you beat that guy up"

He sighed and looked at me with a smile.

"I guess you just made me a better person." He winked at me.

"Cheesyyyyyyy" I responded.

He came to sit next to me on the couch.

"What is it?" I asked. He seemed distant. He's seemed distant for a while now.

"Come on Satori. You've been acting weird lately."
I looked at him but he just blankly stared at the wall, ignoring me.

After a few minutes I got annoyed and grabbed his jaw, turning his face so that he was looking at me.

"Stop acting so childish and just tell me what's up!" I whined, now holding his face in my hands.

He took my hands off his face and took a deep breath.

"Why are you still with me?" He asked in a whisper.
He had a small sad smile on his face.

Is this boy for real? Satori I swear to god.

"Babyyyy I love you." I kissed his forehead.

Was that enough?

"Why?"
A serious look plastered itself onto his face.

Why do I love Satori Tendou?

There are multiple reasons.

Too many to count.

Then why can't I say anything?

"I'm no help to you if I scream." He whispered. Our eyes locked.

"I'm irresponsible." He continued.

"Nobody likes me."

"My grades suck."

"I look like shit."

He kept listing things. His expression getting sadder and sadder.

"I can't control my feelings" His chin started to shake.

A tear fell from his eyes, making him laugh.

"This is proof."

He looked so mad at himself.

Why?

"I'm making your life harder." He got up and looked out the window.

Why can't I say anything.
Why can't I move.
Why can't I help him.

Why?

Why?

WHY?

He came closer and kissed my forehead.

"I don't think it's safe for you to be with me anymore." He whispered, picking up his backpack.

No.

NO.

"Satori." I mumbled.

Satori

That's the only fucking thing that came out of my mouth.

I'm safer with you here.

That's what I should have said before he closed the front door.

I got up and processed everything that had happened.

My stomach was in knots. I could feel my heartbeat in my throat.

The world started to spin and I hit the ground.

Memories filled my mind.

"You're not bad." Satori said. We were surrounded by fairy lights. Our hands intwined. Our first kiss.

"What's so funny?" Satori turned around and strikes a pose. He's wearing my bright pink apron. I'm laughing.

"YOU TOUCH HER AGAIN AND I SWEAR TO GOD, ILL MAKE YOU WISH YOU WERE DEAD A LONG TIME AGO." Satori held Tomoyo by the shirt. He saved me once again. I feel loved.

"Can we stay like this just a little longer?" I stood there with Satori hugging me from the back. I turn around and hug him back.
"Okay."

Satori.

So many things I am thankful for.

I just don't know how to show you how much I appreciate it.

I love you.

I love your red hair.

I love how kind you are.

I love how flustered you get over the smallest things.

I love how mysterious you are.

See? So many things?

My fingertips feel cold.
I open my eyes slightly, just barely seeing through my eyelashes.

Blurs of snow and the smell of peaches is all remembered until my vision goes black.

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Author:
*Cough cough*....heyyyy...

So Uh, sorry. I'm feeling sad so... here ya go.

Sorry if this chapter was short.
Love you guys 🥺

-ElloLuv212 😿