I Need Your Love Before I Fall... [Jeon Jungkook x Reader]

Chapter 20

"Hey, Kookie, Good Morning." I held his hand in mine and sat on the stool next to his bed.

It'd been 4 days. The doctor said that it might be because of the injury on his head. Jungkook's family was also here. Namjoon Sunbae must have been the one that worried the most about him. I told him everything that happened. He understood well obviously. And so did his mom, she was mostly busy so she only came to visit Jungkook in the evenings.

I still couldn't bring myself to forgive me though. If it were worse, we could have completely lost him... Which is why I had come to a decision.

Just then, I heard a knock on the door. I walked to it and opened the door.

"Ah, Sunbae. Where did you go?" I asked Namjoon Sunbae who just came in.

"I went to bring these medicines." He said placing a bag on the side table.

"I see."

"Y/N, it has been hard for you too. You can admit that and don't worry too much. I'm sure my brother would want the same." Namjoon Sunbae said placing a hand on my shoulder.

"...I don't know ...about that yet..." I said.

"I can't help but...-" I stopped before I could say something that would be not appreciated.

"I'm going for a walk," I said and exited the room without waiting for an answer form Namjoon.

I paced upstairs wiping away the stray tears on my face that escaped through the pained eyes.

'Did he deserve this? Why did you make him suffer like this? He was there to love you yet, in the end, you just...

A murderer. An orphan. Misfortune what else can I be besides that?

'My heart? It still is with you Jungkook. I will be with you until you keep me in yours. But this world... I can no longer bear to live like this... I'm sorry. Forgive me but I'm scared, scared that this will happen again. Guess I'm not as brave and crafty as you thought I'd be. I'm a loser...'

I walked towards the railing on the rooftop of the hospital building. I stood there staring at the city from there. I heaved a few heavy and painful breaths and proceeded to stand on top of the railing. I cleared my head of any thoughts and closed my eyes. The breeze that went pass me took away all the pain.

3rd person's POV-

Meanwhile...

"Jungkook Ah, please wake up soon..." Namjoon said as he caressed his little brother's hand and turned around to leave his room.

But as he was in the middle of it, he felt Jungkook's hand move a little. Shocked he turned his head back around and saw Jumgkook's head moving to the side.

"Jungkook Ah, can you hear me?! Nurse, please come in!" Namjoon called out.

The nurse came in followed by the doctor. They started examining him as Namjoon told them what had happened. A few minutes later, Jungkook was finally able to open his eyes and come to consciousness.

"Jungkook Ah," Namjoon called out softly.

"N-Namjoon Hyung..." Jungkook said breathing heavily.

"Are you feeling alright?" Namjoon asked.

"It hurts... Hyung it hurts..." He replied as his eyes became wet and tired.

"You'll be alright, okay. I'm here." Namjoon said.

"I'm... glad..." Jungkook said.

"But Hyung, Y/N... where is she? I want to see her..." Jungkook said.