PROJECT SEKAI: What even is Love

The First Night

Rui had decided to make us some frozen pizza. I slowly had made my way over to the kitchen. I sat down at the table. Rui put me into his embrace. I felt so loved. I wanted to be like this forever. But the oven decided to beep.

"Ah, it's preheated!"

Rui breaks his embrace to put the pizzas in the oven. He promptly returns to give me another hug. My mind is going insane again. I love you, Rui. I want to be like this forever.

"Rui, I love you. Please hold me close. Don't let go. Please."

"I understand, love. By the way, how are you feeling?"

"Okay, I guess...could be better..."

"How can I make it better for you, love?"

"More pet names. It's too damn cute and melts my heart," Rui giggled while I hid my face into my hands. I feel a kiss being pressed into my cheek. I pulled my hands away from my face and turn towards Rui.

He cups my cheek and kisses my lips. I feel time slow. I slowly felt everything around me all fade into a blur. All I could see was Rui. It's really all I wanted to see anyway. Rui and I gained momentum in the kiss. Passion and speed were all that I needed. The oven beeped once more. The kiss broke.

"Mmm," A soft purr escaped my lips. It feels really good.

"I'm glad you liked it. But now, food."

"Food. Yum."

Rui smiled again. I don't think I've ever seen Rui's eyes look this big. It was actually kinda sweet. Those eyes of his. Filled with love. Huh? What is he getting?

"Chili flakes?"

"Yeah, I had them on pizza when I was a kid and have been putting them on ever since."

"Sounds tasty."

"Sure is. Want some, babe?"

I nod as he passes the container to me. I put it on and it gives a nice kick to my pizza. I absolutely loved it. Fucking delicious. Honestly, this is the best thing I've had all day. But why does a frozen pizza make me more happy than a home cooked lunch from a family member? Must be out of bitterness.

"So for our next show, I think we should have a couple of more robots on stage. Considering the song."

"Why a couple? The lonely scientist only built one robot."

"A couple of prototypes I have..."

"Whoa! Use this one. It looks just like Nene."

"I'm glad you like this one. I'm really proud of it too. Shall I show the ladies?"

"You shall."

A small giggle escaped Rui's mouth. Ah, God help me. I'm too in love. It's so freakin' cute. His body, his mind, his demeanor. I love it all. I don't know what I'd do without him.

AROUND 22:00.

Rui is tired. This is what I've been dreading. Where am I gonna sleep? Can I sleep with him? Does that mean? Oh, god my heart isn't ready for that. I nag on his shirt like a needy child.

"Yes, babe?"

"Where are you going?"

"Bed, wanna come with?"

I nod aggressively. Rui giggles again. Did his eyes just look bigger now? He shows me his room. It's only a little messy. The bed is definitely too big for one person though. How can he sleep like that. He motions me to sit down on the bed. He leans in waiting for my response.

I let our lips interlock. Rui puts his hand on my shoulder. I assume trying to keep his balance. Time ticks slow while kissing him. It's the best feeling in the world. I let him go deeper. I don't want this to end. I don't even wanna sleep. I break. I can't hold it in anymore. I begin to sob into Rui's shoulder.

"Rui, Rui!" I couldn't find the words I wanted to say. Nor could I express how I felt. Rui pulled me on the bed. Lying down now he put my head on his chest. Rui, showered me with kisses.

"Babe, listen. Close your eyes. Listen."

"Listen to what!?" I screamed, then I fell silent. Soft sobs still escape my lips. Suddenly, I heard a beat. A heartbeat. I buried my head into his chest. I felt sad still but calm enough. Maybe I can take this time to explain how I'm feeling...if there were actual words I could use.

"Honey?"

"Yes, dear?" Oh my god, I called him a pet name! A small victory for me!

"I can't think of anything. My mind is still in shock," He rubs my head and continues, "I don't think there's words that could explain your predicament."

He's right. There isn't any. We lied there in somber silence. Rui would kiss my head every now and then. It made me feel safe. I love him. I wanna tell him, again. Just redo it all, damn it! I begin to cry again. A soft whisper escapes Rui's lips,

"What can I do for you, my love?"

I look at him tearfully and say,

"I love you!"

He giggles again...

"I know that, babe."

"But do you know how much?"

"Mmm, to the moon and back?"

"To the moon and the galaxies that lie beyond this one."

"My, my. When did you become such a poet?" He flashed me a smirk. I buried my head into his chest.

"Right now," Rui giggled again. As long as I can hear him laugh. Hear him sing, hear him speak. Feel his love. It's all I truly need these days. I can't believe what went down in the course of 3 days...I'm moving too fast. This doesn't feel like the "puppy love" they teach us about in junior high.

Did I really just find the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with? My...My soulmate? I cup Rui's cheek.

"You still up, babe?"

He moves his head into my hand and kisses my palm.

"That's a sensation I've never felt..."

"Like it?"

I nod. My head slightly dozing off. Rui pulls me towards his shoulder.

"Rest your head here."

His head leans to face mine. His sleepy face, it's so beautiful.

"One more kiss?"

Rui obliged my request. It was long, got passionate again. But honestly, I wouldn't mind making out with him all night. Honestly, we feel asleep after the kiss broke. I couldn't stop thinking about kissing him again. I even had a dream about us. Just like real life. Just us. Kissing. It's all I want. All I truly need right now.

And also, gay marriage actually get legalized in this damn country once in for all.