||ʟᴏᴠɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ʟɪʙᴇʀᴏ|| °Nishinoya X Reader°

Uso

Y/n pov

The next day.

"Y/n... You don't look so good right now," Deja speaking took me away from my distant thoughts, "Really? Sorry i just didn't sleep much last night," I gave her a quick smile then looked forward once again.

Why in the hell did i do that... It wasn't even Keno, it was me.. Noya seriously doesn't need anyone like me around... Maybe i should just tell him, or just avoid this whole situation and run away and join the circus... Shouyou would miss me to much.
Im not sure what to do right now...

"You can tell me if something happened Y/n... Im like your best friend... It's about Nishinoya isn't it?" I wanted to tell Deja but my conscious was telling me to just shut up and keep it to yourself until you find an answer to your problems, "It's fine Deja..." Luckily, thr bell had rang giving me the opportunity to take off down the hall away from her.

Sharply turning a corner i ran into someone, i stumbled back while hold my cheek, "S-sorry... Oh Keno," The memories of my dumbass decision clouded my mind once again, "Y/n... Hah hi... Anyways i didn't mean to run into you just walking to my class..." Things were awkward...

"Oh no it's fine i was going too," We stared at each other for a while with a noticeably uncomfortable look, "Well bye!" I quickly said and pushed past him and speed walked down the hall with sweat beads rolling down my neutral face.

Nothing more then a kiss happened last night... I wish nothing more then us talking happened last night, maybe i just stay silent for now... I'll tell them eventually...

-Time skip-

It was lunchtime about now somehow i was the first person of my lunch group to arrive so... I feel lonely and like an outcast, when they show up, how do i look them in the eyes... How do i disguise that I've just done something horrible to one of their best friends, do i wear the look of guilt or hide it... Tadashi is here.

"Y/n? Your almost always the last person here because how far your class is... You must've been hauling  some fucking ass," He joked and sat down diagonally from me with his lunch in hand, "Where's the salt shaker... You two are almost always together," Tadashi blushed a little and rubbed his neck, "He'll be here in a bit... Anyways can i ask you something..."

I nodded at him, "So like... If you have a secret to tell someone but you don't know how to tell it because your scared you'll ruin the relationship you have with that person but your tired of all these emotions so you just wanna get it over with already, how would you go about it," That's kinda similar to my situation...

A small laugh came from me as i grabbed onto the strings of my jacket about to tighten the shit out of them to kill myself, "Welp... I would find a nice spot... A place were you and that person have bonded and hung out at... Make sure your alone, and spill it, let them listen, let it them think, and then let them decide on there own... Im sure your secret won't cost your friendship if that person your talking about actually valued it..." My situation on the other hand... I'd definitely cost our entire relationship its like i didn't value ours enough... But i thought i did...

"Wow... Your really good at this become a therapist.. Or something like that a counselor! Anyways thanks that was helpful," A fool who can't take her own advice is helpful... "Your welcome I'm always here to help," And slowly the other guys and Deja showed up making me feel less like an outcast, this would all disappear when i tell them and im kinda fine with that... I deserve it.

Surprisingly, Nishi never showed up which was strange and none if the guys told me anything so i guessed they didn't know either but i couldn't help but ask, "Does anyone know where Noya is," Tanaka stared at me and sighed, "He wasn't feeling good so he stayed home... Seriously i thought he'd tell you since you two are dating," I thought he would've told them we broke up.

"Actually we aren't dating anymore," Everyone, excluding Shouyou, looked at me with wide eyes, "What! You guys were fine a week ago! What happened! Did Noya do something I'll beat him up for you Y/n," Tadashi and Shouyou tried their best to calm Tanaka, "I-its fine i swear Tanaka we're ok... Just something happened but he didn't do anything wrong."

He finally stopped shouting and stared at the table gloomily, "You two gave me hope that I'd eventually have a lover and not be completely lonely *sigh*," I sweat dropped, "Um sorry? Im sure you'll find someone wonderful Tanaka,"

The rest if the lunch period went by in a flash with everyone having fun but today i kept quiet, i was deep into thought thinking about Nishi... Maybe i could visit him later... No don't do that idiot...

I really just wanted to sleep, im tired.

I wonder how Nishinoya is doing right about now.

Noya pov

The sickness in my stomach grew everytime i closed my eyes seeing the image in my head, i had really bad dream about Y/n kissing someone else.. It was weird it made me want to puke.

I was lying in bed with my fan blowing and snuggling into my pillows, she isn't dating me right now.. Technically she can do what ever the hell she wants, screw that! Y/n still likes me right?

Sighing softly i gripped hard onto my sheets while closing my eyes then immediately opened them again seeing the look on her face, I miss her so much right now i feel like an asshole, Daichi really gave me no good advice yesterday... Gosh screw him.

I miss Y/n... Her smell, her beautiful face, the smile, her body, ahhhhhh i miss you Y/n... I want things to go back to normal... Our normal my favorite kinda normal.