Constant smile - shinso x kaminari

Chapter Three

!TW! Abuse, slur, cutting, suicidal thoughts
Sticking with 3rd person POV unless it says otherwise
The rest of the day was kind of a blur for denki. Hitoshi didn't talk to him at all, he felt like he was so alone even though he was surrounded by people. Denki wanted to reach out to people but he didn't want to be a burden. Another thing, the voices were getting louder and harder to shut off. At the end of the day Denki was starting to panic, he wondered if his dad would remember what he said this morning. Hopefully not.

Denki ran towards the bus but it left just before he reached the bus stop. 'Fuck, dads gonna be pissed when i get home late' He started walking then heard foot steps behind him. Out of the corner of Denki's eye he could see Hitoshi walking behind him.

Hitoshi had been thinking about Denki for most of the day, why was he constantly smiling. He saw Denki walking home the same way he does but Denki was looking a little scared. As much as Hitoshi wanted to go up to Denki and give him a hug, he couldn't allow any distractions from his goal.

After a while Denki turned into a driveway, relievingly saw that his dad's car wasn't in the driveway and walked up to his house. Once he got in he went upstairs and opened his door. He saw his dad sitting on his bed, belt in hand.

Hitoshi saw Denki walk up his driveway and he kept on walking. 'Was he looking anxious because he didn't want to go home, or was it just the anxiety from school?' He didn't know and it really bothered him. 'Why should i care about some dumb boy?'
'Because he needs help'
'I don't know that'
'Well then why were his hands shaking and his eyes all red'
Hitoshi decided to ask denki tomorrow about it.

Denki dropped his bag on the floor. "Hello denki" his father said in a murderous tone. His father used his super speed and grabbed Denki in a headlock. He tried to wriggle out of his grasp but was thrown against the wall. Sitting in a fetal position, his father kicked denki so hard that he started coughing up blood.

Denki's father dragged him by the collar and chucked him on the bed. He moved up his shirt and whipped Denki with the belt. Denki's whole body was shaking, he began to think that he was going to die but his father walked away. Before closing the door his dad said "Clean up the mess, fag". Once he left, Denki started to sob uncontrollably. 'Why..why me?'
Because your a worthless, good for nothing, idiot that should die
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I would tell you to cut but you don't have any space
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Jump off the school roof tomorrow
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Denki's exhaustion got the better of him and he drifted to sleep. He dreamt of his mother, it was his fault that she died. Denki was 7 and was walking with his mum in the park. A villain suddenly emerged and started to destroy the area, his mother tried to protect Denki but got taken by the villain. He looked around for the hero's, screaming for help but they were too late. The villain had already crushed his mother when the hero's arrived.

Denki woke up but sat up too fast, forgetting that he was beaten the shit out of yesterday. He looked at the clock, 5:32, he'd have to be extremely quiet though so no showers. Denki walked into his bathroom and looked in the mirror. He had a black eye, a few bruises on his face, his face wasn't as bad as his stomach would be. Denki disinfected his old from himself and new cuts from his father, bandaged them, slowly put on his school uniform and walked out the door.

Waiting at the bus stop he tried to smile, but he couldn't. When he stepped onto the bus, Denki gave a weak quivering smile. Kirishima was a little worried "Hi denks, what's wrong?" "Oh nothing..just er..didnt sleep too well". Kirishima nodded, he knew denki sometimes got nightmares about his mum's death. Denki stared out the window the whole time, he would do it at lunch.

First class was math with Nezu, which Denki hated with a passion because he had dyscalculia (dyslexia but with numbers). He ended up zoning out for the whole time and for most of other classes.

Hitoshi noticed something really off about Denki, he asked him if he was okay in between classes Denki replied "I'm fine" He smiled at Hitoshi with lifeless eyes and put his headphones back on (listening to the video above). The way he looked confirmed his thoughts more, Denki wasn't okay. Wearing long sleeves when it's hot, limping, eyes cold and distant, Hitoshi had to find out the truth.

When the lunch time bell went Hitoshi didn't know where denki went so he just went to his normal spot on the roof. Once he opened the door he saw Denki sitting on the ledge. "HEY, GET AWAY FROM THERE" denki turned his head, Hitoshi saw his face smiling his smile but it looked a little crazy. Denki looked back to the bottom of the building "Kaminari come down from there" there was a short pause "I'm just sitting up here, you can leave now" "Not until you tell whats wrong". "Oh well, bye then"

Denki stood up and began to fall waiting for the endless pain. Denki felt him slipping away from his reality and the edge of the building but he was pulled back by Hitoshi and put back on the roof.

Denki began sobbing and Hitoshi pulled him into a hug. Denki hadn't hugged anyone in years.

A/n Denki's music taste would be kinda like grunge and soft rock e.g Radiohead, nirvana, bit of the smiths for like chilling but also some sad pop like the song above. Hitoshi's would be either electro or no music, in my opinion.