[UNION] Fidelity » IYLE 2 || HANHUN/ HUNHAN

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"I'm not your first, alpha, am I?" Sehun asks without himself actually thinking through, making Lu Han blink up at him slowly.

"You're.. my first love.." Lu Han whispers, swallowing the pain that follows as memories flood him again with just one question. "You are my first love, Sehun.."

"Not that.." Sehun mumbles, sitting down the bed in front of Lu Han. "Y-You know how I waited for you? You didn't wait for me, right? You didn't give your first to me."

Lu Han slightly frowns. "Th-The way you say it.." Lu Han trails off. "Are you upset because of it? I'm.. sorry.. I.. know you saved it for me.. but I didn't do the same.. I'm sorry because of that.."

I'm sorry I couldn't fight them.

Sehun looks down and gulps, biting his lower lip sadly and nodding. "Who was it?"

"Wh-What?" Lu Han questions.

"I-Is it a girl, maybe? O-Or a random male omega you met?"

Lu Han looks down, breathing out and pursing his lips as he shakes his head. "No.. No, not—uhm. It's not like what you think.." Lu Han sighs, looking everywhere but Sehun as the trauma slowly creeps back from the recesses of his mind.

"Why? What do I think? Did you fuck with a human?"

"Sehun," Lu Han whispers. "Sehun, this.. this topic makes me feel uncomfortable. C-Can we not talk about this?"

"Why not?" Sehun asks. "It's not like it'll make me angry.. I'm just curious who had it."

Lu Han doesn't look at Sehun when he nods. "Yeah, I understand but.. I really don't want to just.. say it to you.."

"Why not?"

"Sehun.." Lu Han whispers.

"No, why not?" Sehun pushes his voice, tight from his throat, and there's a hint of warm tears threatening to fall. "Give me a reason why."

"I just don't want you to get upset, okay? A-And it's not like it's something important to know.."

"Did you love that person?"

Lu Han blinks up at Sehun at this. "What?"

"Did you love who you gave it to?"

"Is this an issue?"

"Yeah, it is."

"Sehun.."

"Does that mean you did?" Sehun asks, smiling softly before nodding to himself. "That's enough for me to know.."

"I'm sorry.." Lu Han mutters. "I didn't love him that time yet.."

"Was that supposed to make me feel better?" Sehun inquires softly, smiling sweetly and chuckling. "Should I be happy?"

"Sehun.. Sehun, it's in the past.. You're the one I love now.." Lu Han states, subconsciously grasping the bedsheets.

Sehun raises his eyebrows and nods. "Okay, I'll.. I'll just stop asking those things.. I'm sorry for bothering you with my stupid questions.." Sehun mumbles and grabs the blankets, turning away and laying down the bed.

Lu Han frowns sadly, and he does lay beside Sehun, wrapping his hand around his omega's waist in remorse. "Sehun.."

"I wanna sleep.." Sehun complains, pushing Lu Han's hand off, but Lu Han doesn't let it.

"Let me just hug you.." Lu Han whispers, pulling Sehun closer to him and holding him tightly. "Let me hold you.."

Sehun breathes in shakily, but he doesn't make a move to make Lu Han let go, so Lu Han happily plants kisses on Sehun's bare neck and shoulder, gently pushing Sehun's shirt out of the way to reveal more soft skin.