Her Neonate

~47~

"Man Taehyung don't be such a kid...it's just beer, Ive seen my mom's new boyfriend drink it all the time" Namjoon shrugs, Taehyung scrunches up his nose.

"Ew no way, it stinks and my mom said it gives you a huge gut when you get old"

Namjoon laughs at his younger cousin, "More for me" he takes a long swig from the can in his hand, Taehyung eyes him before snatching the can and taking a sip before spitting it out.
"You bitch that's water!"

Namjoon laughs even harder, "I knew you'd do that, man Taehyung you really gotta do better with peer pressure before you enter Highschool"

Taehyung rolls his eyes, "Man whatever, I can handle myself...but if you're there too I think I'll be okay" he muttered the last bit causing Namjoon to chuckle, Tae pouts before speaking "Do you think you can be an several engineer?"
"You mean a civil engineer dumbass?" Namjoon laughs, Taehyung rolls his eyes.
"You know what I mean...do you think you can do it"

"Hell yeah! I'm inquisitive, curious and realistic...those are proper traits for any engineer but especially civil engineers. You gotta be smart like me if you gonna improve infrastructures" Namjoon said proudly, silence suddenly shadowed over the two of them.
Namjoon looks over to Taehyung who was continuing to pout.
"What are you frowning about?"

"Uh...it's just...is it normal not knowing what you're gonna do?"

"Hmm...loads of my mom's ex boyfriends didnt know what they wanna be at their big age, so I imagine you're alright...you're only fourteen" Namjoon answers with a shrug, "Bro stop stressing, did you forget how great you are with cooking? Being a chef is in your blood"
Taehyung shrugs, "I love my parents and I love the restaurant but I'm not sure if I'm good enough to continue-"
"Oh please Taehyung, remember when you first smoked weed with me and you made that bomb ass mushroom burger for the both of us?"

Taehyung finally cracks a smile which turned into a laugh, "Oh shit man, yeah...but that was a burger...I don't know if I can make my dad's kimchi fried rice"

Namjoon sucks his teeth, "You've got years to learn that but something you can't learn is creative self-expression...you're only born with that"

Taehyung cackles in his cousin's face "Bro shut up with that corny shit" he pushes his cousin away and quickly runs off, the two cousins spent the afternoon together until night fell. Mr.Kim realized it was time for his nephew to get home so he took the initiative to drive him there.
"You're getting thinner these days Namjoon, you should eat more as a growing boy"

"My mom is working overtime these days so eventually we'll get some food-"
"Your own uncle and aunt have a restaurant with plenty! Just come to us when you get hungry" Mr.Kim grinned cheerfully.

"Haha of course uncle"

"I know with my sister being so young when she had you, things get hard but you can lean on us...I'm gonna tell you something that I've never told anyone before...promise to keep it?"

"Yeah of course" he sat up, his curiosity was peaked, "About seventeen years ago, your mom ran off to the US with her first boyfriend, she sort of went off the grid. She didn't really call us or update about much until two years later, she gave me a call and said that she was pregnant...with a boy and her boyfriend just didn't want kids nor did he want her...I took that as the perfect opportunity to become a citizen of America. Took us about two years but we made it here"

Namjoon stared at his uncle with hardened eyes, "She...she never told me that"

"Yeah becoming a citizen of any country takes a while b-"

"No I meant the story...about my...dad"

Mr.Kim froze, his sister told him she already told him that bit of the story, Namjoon's mother was always a liar.
"She told me she never knew him...he just didn't want me?"
Right as those words left his mouth,they pulled up to the apartment complex and his mother was outside smoking a cigarette.
"Oh...uh I guess she's not working tonight" Namjoon quickly said before unlatching his seatbelt and getting out the car.
His mother glances at the car and rolls her eyes before placing an arm on her son's shoulder to greet him but Namjoon quickly pushes away and marches into their complex.

Namjoon stormed into the unlocked apartment to see a long haired man sitting on the couch, "Oh hey kid, How was school?"
"It's Saturday..."

"Oh right...yeah it's been a long time since I've-"
Namjoon walks past him and enters his room, five minutes later his door is opened. "Namjoon...hey...baby you okay?"
He chuckles hearing his mother's voice but ignores her sticking his face further into his book.

"Namjoon?...hey!" She raised her voice slightly before getting quiet again, "Hey! ...what did he tell you?"
"Why can't you at least pretend you're working?" He huffs, his mother frowns, "Pardon me?"
Namjoon just shook his head and went back to reading the book in his hand.
"That's it...I'm done with that prissy ass family. You are not-and I mean never going back over there!"

"Like hell I won't!" He finally meets eyes with her, "You watch your fucking mouth!"

"Woah,woah what's all the hostility"

"James can you let me and my son have one god damn conversation without you waltzing in and making things worse"
James licks his lips before drunkenly turning and walking away, Namjoon chuckles, "Amazing taste in men mom!" He replied sarcastically.
His mother scoffs in disbelief, "I don't know what my brother told you back there but it's not true"

"My dad...you came here with him...you weren't raped! You knew him but he didn't want me!"
His mother froze and stiffly swallowed the lump in her throat, "Okay...Namjoon- So what if I did? He didn't wanna be a part of this life and I knew it'd hurt you more to know the tru-"

"It's been sixteen years! He might've changed, he might be ready to be a father now...you didn't give him that opportunity, you didn't give me the opportunity"

"What's wrong with just having me?!" She shouts, Namjoon watches his mother sob, he didn't mean to hurt her feelings but... he had to stand his ground. "I wanna find him..."
"Do you?...just grab my phone, he's all over Facebook with his new wife and kids...wanna see? Huh do you?"

"So I have siblings?"

"Those are not your family members, he may have fathered you but he was never your father...when are you gonna get that?"

"You don't know that, have you tried mes-"

"Messaging?..." She swiftly pulls out her phone and went through it before reading the text on the screen "...'Hey Wonyoung remember me? I know this is sudden but I had the baby, he's ten today, just in case you wanted to know his birthday" she looks up at her son who listened keenly, "I'm not asking for money but I just wanted to know if you'd at least meet him, he has a family tree project in school and is having a bit of a hard time because of it. Thank you"

She drops her hand from her face and looks at Namjoon, " 'Who is this?'..." she quoted. "Doesn't matter if he was lying or if he truly forgot me, he doesn't give a damn about us and you need to get over it" she pushes the phone into his chest to show him, his mother turns to leave and Namjoon scurries to pick up the phone and read it himself.

He felt his heart break seeing those words written in the screen, Namjoon held back his scream before turning to his pillow and letting them run loose in the head cushion. There was so much hatred brewing in him because of this, he didn't know what to do...so he pulled the covers up and shut his eyes to sleep

H-hey...y'all mad at me?? I'm sorry 😬 okay listen guys I'm 21 years old now( soon to be 22) I've been trying to figure out this adult thing, it's really difficult and I thought one of the first things to do was to quit activities I did as a child AKA Wattpad...But I'm done with that, I can't promise to be as active as I use to be but I'll at least attempt with writing again. SEE YALL SOON 💖