BURNING RED

Chapter 33

WARNING: SPG (GRIND)

"Baby.. No.."he refused gently. He ran to me then hugged me tight.

"We have to talk. Not like this. Baby." He said while I was struggling to let myself go from his arms.

The infant in Cristiana's arms should be his priority. Not me. Ayokong kapag lumaki ang anak nya ay masumbatan siya na walang kwentang tatay. It would surely break my heart.

"Bryce, just let me go. They need you. I'm setting you free." Pilit kong tinatanggal ang malabakal nyang braso na nakapulupot sa baywang ko.

"Baby, she's not mine. I swear.. please. Not like this."

"Paanong hindi naging sayo kung nakarelasyon mo siya Bryce! Marry her and give your child your name! You're being selfish! Your daughter should be your priority now!"I shouted in frustration and anger.

"I love you baby. You're the only one. Me and Cristiana never had a relationship except a professional one. Kahit itanong mo pa kay Kuya Carl!"he explained desperately.

I paused. I couldn't believe he would tell me this.

"I don't care if you had relationship with her or not. Ang at stake dito ay ang bata! Your child. Give her your name. She deserves it, I don't." I swallowed hard. Then my tears poured down.

"No. My name's only for you. I'll do something about them. But please, I can't bear to lose you again." He begged.

"I think it's better if we part ways for now Bryce. Para makapag isip ka nang mabuti. I suggest you take my advice and give your daughter what she deserves." Nasabi ko nalang at nakarinig kami ng tunog ng chopper.

I looked out of the window and sure enough, it landed smoothly on the pad.

Bryce hands fell down on his sides when he saw it and closed his eyes tightly. Like he lost all of his strength.

"This is goodbye Bryce. I hope you'll be happy with them." I said then tip toed to kissed him on the lips for the last time.

"I'll send you the papers. If you need anything, just talk to my lawyers" I turned around and took all my belongings.

But there was one thing I left. And probably would never get it back.

My heart.

Ilang araw na akong nagkukulong sa kwarto ko. I never went out. I just stayed in bed all day and all night. I lost all the drive to live again. Siguro nga dahil naaawa ako sa sarili ko. I lost the battle without even fighting. Dahil sa umpisa pa lang talo na ako.

Ano bang laban ko sa sariling dugo at laman ni Bryce? At alam na alam ko sa sarili kong gustong gusto niya ng magkaanak.

One month had passed by so painfully slow. I stopped receiving call. And emails. Ayokong makatanggap ng balita mula kay Bryce at sa divorce lawyers namin. Lahat ang mga secretary ko na ang tumatanggap. I told them that if it was an emergency or urgent, then they could let me know. They were efficient and well trained anyway. They could handle my affairs. I signed my divorce paper after I arrived here and Kate sent it to Bryce in the Philippines. At his hometown.

Habang nagkukulong ako sa kwarto, wala akong ginawa kundi kumain ng kumain. I looked it up in the internet. Stress eating daw. I couldn't stop eating kahit bumigat ako nang ten pounds sa isang buwan. My breast became tender and rounder. Tapos pati tyan ko lumaki na rin.

Nakakainis kasi magiging diborsyada na nga ako, infertile at pangit pa! Lahat hinakot ko na. Wala na talagang magkakainteres sa akin kahit physical relationship lang.