The Bestfriend [R18+ on going]

Chapter 23

-SHE'S BROKEN, BUT I AM TOO-

Raven's POV

"You need to stay." I rasped. Her face is just an inch closer to mine and I can clearly see her trembling lips. Damn, I want to taste them so fucking much.

"I need to go..I have to.." Her words sent my anger on edge. Who the fuck she think she is to reject me!?

"R-Raven.." Karina whined as she felt my tight grip againsts her waist. I can't let her go. Not now, never.

"Raven! Let go!" She shouted, getting my attention. My eyes scanned her weak feature as I back away at her slowly, releasing my grasp on her arms. What am I doing?

Karina looked down, her fingers clutching on the hem of her shirt as she tried hard to balance herself. "I'm.. I'm going to quit, I can't work with you." She mumbled meekly as I felt my whole body tensed. What does she mean?

My lips formed into a smirk as I spoked. "You can't?" I laughed at her words as her eyes lifted to see mine. Walking towards her the second time, I stopped in front of her fragile body then leaned down to her face, whispering my words to her ear. "Why the fuck you can't? Because you're feeling guilty? What baby Kari, tell me.. are your conscience already eating you alive?" I questioned as I inhaled deeply, smelling her sweet scent. Her body became stiffen as I fought myself so hard to resist from grabbing her and lying her down on my very own bed. "Because if they are then I would like to hear you scream from the pain." I finished my words then back away a bit, just enough to see her reaction.

Her face became even paler than before if that's even possible as her tears raced down her cheeks continuously. She's broken, but I am too.

"I-I'm sorry R-Raven..I have a rea–"

"Don't fucking say that words to me Karina! I fucking hate it!" I shouted at her loudly that it made her words stop. I don't fucking care about her explanation. She fucking did that to me, she betrayed me.

"R-Raven I'm really so–" before she can even repeat those words again, my hand acted before me as it grabbed her jaw so harshly that she winched in pain.

"What did I say?" I hissed in my gritted teeth as I dug my fingers deeper and even harder on her jaw. Her tears are falling too fast from her eyes and it's causing a mess on her rosy cheeks. "You. Fucking. Betrayed. Me." I emphasized all of the words that I spat on her. She deserves this. I know she does..

"R-Raven.. please l-listen to me–" Is she kidding with me?

By tightening my grip on her jaw, I encircled my other arm around her waist and pulled her close to my body. "I won't listen to you. The old Raven that you once know is dead. I'm no fool anymore Karina. So, if you expect me to listen to your lies then you're just wasting your fucking breath." Her eyes holds fear, worry and regret but I don't care.

"Y-you..changed." She whispered and I felt my body stiffened. Her voice sounds so angelic that I almost give in to her and let her heal all the wounds and scars that I got from my past.

Our eyes met together. Her hazel orbs are all glassy and pleading while her lips are quivering from her silent sobs. My Karina.... "I did," I spoked with my hard tone. "I killed the old Raven."

"Why..?" She mumbled as I kept my eyes on her magical orbs.

"Because I realized that he can't survive in this world." I answered bitterly.

"Is it my fault?" She asked softly. What is she doing!? Why is she making this hard for me?

I gulped hard before answering her question but I can't seem to find my voice. Is it her fault?...

I was in daze when I felt her warm palm on my right cheek. She's caressing it so softly as if I'm a fragile glass. I miss her so much. I miss every fucking thing on her.

"I'm sorry.. Raven I-I'm so sorry.. p-please..forgive me.." She sobbed uncontrollably as she hug me tightly in between her arms. My once dry shirt is now dampened by her rich tears. She's crying in my arms and here I am, not doing anything.

My Karina..

Why do you keep on breaking us together?

'push her away! She betrayed you!',  My mind shouted at me so harshly but I can't pull back. I can't, not now, not yet. I wanted to push her away, hurt her and make her suffer but it feels like there's an invisible thread on my heart that's connected to her because the more I want to push her away the more the knot tightened and keeps on pulling her towards me.

"It hurts Karina.." I started as she sink herself more onto me. "I never thought that the one who I trusted the most will be the one who'll pull the trigger to kill me." Her arms tightened around my waist as she cried harder.

'Don't do it.' Again, my mind warned me but it's too late. Lifting my hand in the air, I placed it on her head but not to push her away but to caressed it soothingly.

"I'm really sorry.." She whispered those words again and my heart broke into pieces.

"Stop saying those words.." I begged as I sighed heavily, resting my chin on the top of her head. She's still small and I find it so fucking cute.

"Why did you do it? Why did you lied? Why did you... betrayed me?" I asked and she suddenly released me from her tight embrace, leaving me in both confusion and the anger that's slowly coming back to me.

"I-I really need to go.." Karina mumbled then moved herself towards the door. Dammit.

"Karina!" I called her name aloud that made her stop on her tracks. "I've been searching the answer for that fucking question of mine but I can't find it." I don't know what I'm talking about nor where will this go but I can't seem to stop myself anymore.
"I've been questioning myself if I somehow did something bad to you but as far as I could remember, I'm ALWAYS there for you. I never did something BAD to you.. so why?" I clenched my fist tightly in anticipation. Answer it.

"I-I can't–"

"Goddammit Karina!" I screamed, hitting the bedside table with my fist as it created a loud sound all over the room. All of the things that placed so neatly on the top fell and scattered down the floor.

"I-I.. Rav–" I glared at her direction and she clamped her mouth shut as she stood stiffly on her spot like a statue.

"Leave." Before I do something that I might regret.

I cocked my head on the side when she didn't move. She kept her eyes on me as if I froze the time. What the fuck is she doing?

Clenching my jaw, I strides towards her then grabbed her arm, tearing her from whatever dimension she's in. "I said, fucking leave." I gritted my teeth as she looked at me with her hazel eyes, filled with fear. She's horrified from me.

She shook her arm, taking off my hand as she wobbled on her feet and held the knob in her shaking hands but before she can even twist it to get out. I caught her waist then pressed my face on her neck, inhaling her intoxicating fragrance.

"You can't quit." I whispered on her ear before giving it a soft lick, "I won't let you quit. If you do, I'll make sure that no company will ever hire you. I might even buy the apartment you're staying in right now and make you sleep on the street."

"Y-you're..so cruel." She glared at me as I released my hold on her.

"Trust me sugarplum, I'm just starting." I smirked at her devilishly as she tried to hold back the tears that's threatening to fall on her eyes and I watched her disappeared as the door closes.