Serendipity

Chapter 7

Bracelet...

Nakangiting kinuha ko ang cell phone ko at dinial ang number niya. Matapos ang ilang ring ay sinagot din naman niya ang tawag.

"Hey!" Masiglang bati niya

"Are you doing something? Am i bothering you?" I asked, worrying if i bothered him.

"No, of course not. What is it?"

"Stop playing with me, Sy..." natatawang sabi ko.

"What? Who said that i'm playing with you?"

"Its you who gave me that flowers and that precious bracelet!" pairap kong sagot dahilan para matawa siya mula sa kabilang linya.

"So? I see nothing wrong about that and i told you, its my late present for your graduation."

"And i also told you that i don't need and want any gifts..."

"Don't you like it?"

"No, i like it. I actually love it, Sy, but you know me. I don't like receiving gifts, specially from you because your support for me althroughout everything is more than enough.."

"I want to give you something, besides, you deserve it."

"Symon, ito na ang huli na bibilhan mo ako ng kung ano lalo na at mamahalin yon. Everything around me is enough and i am grateful for that, okay? Anyways, thank you so much for your gift..."

"Tsk. Ayan at nag thank you ka rin! Ang dami mo pa kasing sinasabi eh!"

I laughed.

"Alright, my bad. I'll end this call na. For sure, you're doing something.."

"Goodbye, then. Take a good rest, okay?"

"I will. You too, goodbye." Paalam ko saka ibinaba ang linya.

Hindi ko maiwasang hindi isipin ang naging usapan kanina. Archer's parents are waiting and obviously, very excited for their son's wedding.

I swear, i am sincere when i said that i'm happy for the both of them once they got into that stage. I was also sincere to offer my help if it is needed. My feelings for their relationship is so sincere that i wish them for happiness for the rest of their lives.

Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit lately, nag iiba ang emosyon ko. Yes, i am sincere, but behind that sincerity, i was actually feeling pain. Hindi ko alam kung bakit habang sinasabi ko ang mga salitang yon ay parang may tumutusok na karayom sa puso ko. I don't know why my smile felt so fake at that moment.

For four years ay sinuportahan ko ang relasyon nilang dalawa. I even promised to myself that i will surely attend to their wedding someday even if i am not invited. I will cry for so much happiness dahil saksi ako sa pag-iibigan nilang dalawa.

But these days, i found myself comparing me to her. Palagi kong iniisip na, what if i was as good as her?

Sa loob ng apat na taon ay nakuntento ako sa kung ano ang mayroon ako. Hindi ako naghangad ng sobra buong buhay ko. Ang gusto ko lang ay ang mabuhay ng simple pero nag iba na yon ngayon. I found myself desiring for something---someone that i cannot have no matter how hard i try.

Sa dinami dami ng bagay na hindi ko nakuha kahit na alam kong deserving ako sa bagay na yon ay never akong nagtanong kung bakit ba hindi na lang yon ibigay sa akin, but this one, its different. Palaging ito ang dahilan kung bakit ko kinukwestiyon lahat ng pangyayari sa buhay ko.

Hindi ako nag hangad ng sobra. Kahit walang wala na ako ay nagbibigay ako kaya bakit itong isang hinihiling ko ay hindi pwedeng mapasaakin?

Palagi nilang sinasabi na hindi pwedeng nasayo ang lahat pero paano naman akong kahit kailan ay hindi nagkaroon ng kahit ano? Hindi ba pwedeng yung kaisa isang bagay na gustong gusto ko ay maging sakin?