Secrets I have held in my heart (part 1)

Chapter 15: Malfoy's other side

Hey guys just a small TW because there is a mention of blood and sharp objects but no self-harm. It's just part of something that happens. If you think it might trigger you skip to the end of the chapter where I'll make a brief summary of what happens in the chapter so you don't have to read it. 

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'sorry?' I asked, not daring to look back because I knew exactly who it was

'this is yours and I'm sorry for taking it' the voice replied

I turned around, obviously it was Draco, he had a small velvet box in his hand and was signalling me to take it.

I snatched it from his hands and opened it, revealing inside my mothers ring along with the chain.

'why are you doing this Malfoy?' I spat at him. He was the last person I wanted to see. The nerve of showing up and returning my ring that he had stolen and just simply say sorry, it wasn't good enough and I wasn't having it.

'Like I said, I'm sorry. I know what happened between you and George and-'

'oh right so now it's the perfect time to save the day right?' I said angrily 'do you really think I'm stupid enough to accept your apologies, you knocked me off my broomstick, almost killing me and stole my mothers ring, my dead mother's ring'

'I'm trying to explain myself here and I didn't know it was your mother's' he exclaimed 'I want to let you know that-' he continued, looking terrified and ashamed but I knew he had to be lying

'stay away from me, and don't ever speak to me. Just because you gave me back my PERSONAL property doesn't mean you get my forgiveness. You gave me hell from the first moment I got here and you've been giving hell to my friends since you've met them' I lashed out, I was crying and I could feel my blood boil but I had had enough 'You don't deserve anything Malfoy, and I most definitely don't care what your excuse is' I finished off, pushing him away with my shoulder as I left the store.

Now I had no where else to go. I was out on the main street but I felt more lost than I had ever felt. I was confused, why had Malfoy given me back the ring? Why was the back of my mind saying that he was being honest? and why did I want to give him a chance to explain himself?

I ran off towards the castle, I couldn't be here any longer and the farther away from everyone, the clearer my mind would be. I stepped inside the school grounds and went into the nearest girls bathroom. I looked into the mirror, my face was flushed from the cold and anger and my eyes were bloodshot from crying. I was disgusted by the reflection. This wasn't me, I used to be able to handle situations but now I felt like I was being drowned, anchored to a never ending void that pushed me down further. 

'fuck' I whispered which then turned into a louder cry when I punched the mirror. Shards of glass had fallen all around me and my knuckles were bleeding from the sharp pieces of the broken mirror. I backed away towards the wall and slid down to the floor, allowing the pain to remain in my hand so that everything else that hurt would be drowned out. 

'y/n?' 

'go away Malfoy' I warned him, grabbing a shard of glass that was closest to me, making my hand bleed even further

'jesus christ Edwards' he said with a pained voice, he saw my bleeding hand and the shard of glass that was cutting deep in my skin 

'I said go away' I told him, in a quiet voice because I could feel a knot in my throat

He didn't leave, he did the opposite. He knelt down to where I was and took the hand with the piece of glass and threw it away to the side. Silently, he took out his wand and said 'vulnera sanentur' pointing at the wound in my palm and closing it immediately. For my hand he said 'ferula', emitting a bandage from his wand that wrapped itself around my less demanding injury.

'why are you doing this Malfoy?' I asked, looking directly at him because for the first time, I wanted him to look back and be honest

'y/n, I'm sorry and I know I don't deserve your forgiveness' he began saying 'I was jealous of you and George, I wanted you and I saw that George had already gotten to you'

'I'm not just a prize, Malfoy' I warned with my voice

'You're not, but you-' he stopped himself, I could see he was crying 'you are perfect Edwards, and I could see that George was using you and I-'

'stop Draco, I'm not the perfect person that you have pictured in your mind and I don't want to talk about George. I still don't forgive you and I want you to stay away from me, I don't want a fuck up like you to break me again' I said, this time standing up and leaving Draco behind, who was now trying to muffle his crying.

When I walked up, I could see other students returning. Hermione and Ron weren't anywhere to be seen so I walked up the stairs slowly coming to a halt when I saw a large commotion at the entrance of the Gryffindor common room.

'Edwards' Fred panted from behind 'where were you?, I've been looking for you everywhere' 

'thats none of your business' I said bitterly, from behind I could see George and Olivia holding hands and joking around 

'hey, what's wrong?' he asked more seriously, coming up to my level. He looked to where I was glaring then unexpectedly gave me a hug, whispering that he was sorry. I accepted the hug, I knew that at least he was being sincere.

'everyone down to the Great Hall' announced Dumbledore, from the crowd I could see that the portrait of the Fat Lady had been ripped to shreds and from the swarm of students that was heading down the stairs, I kept hearing alarmed voices say 'it's Sirius, Sirius Black is in the castle'.

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If you skipped the chapter because of the TW this is the summary:

Y/n heads back to the castle, goes into the bathroom and breaks the mirror. Draco enters and clears/heals her wounds. He then confesses that he has feeling for her (you) and says that he was jealous. Y/n is not convinced and leaves him in the bathroom while he is crying. Y/n walks up the stairs and sees a crowd formed around the portrait of the Fat Lady. Y/N sees George and Olivia together and Fred comforts her then Dumbledore announces that all students must go to the Great Hall. Y/N finds out that the portrait has been ripped to shreds by Sirius Black.