Chapter 2

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-Lexa-

I snuggle further into my blankets dreading the day to come. Usually I'm a morning person but today I want nothing more then to stay in my bed all day, to hide from the world, but sadly that's not possible. I groan quietly. I hear small footsteps pad down the hall quickly, Aden's awake. My door quietly creaks open and through the crack I can see my adorable baby boy, he's holding his stuffed bear and staring at me. "Good morning buddy" I whisper as he scampers towards me. Aden jumps on top of me and I laugh, I hug him close for a moment, he's the light in my life. "Let's get up" I say to him, I stand up and pick Aden up in the process. I put him down gently and walk up to my closet. I search through a couple hangers each full with various cloths, most of them black. I decide on a simple outfit, black ripped jeans and a black tank top. The moms at daycare will defiantly judge me with this outfit, not that I really care they're already not to keen on the teen mom. I replace my sweats with the new outfit. Aden gazes up at me, I scoop him up and we walk to the bathroom together, I quickly braid my hair and wash my face. Then we both walk into the kitchen/dining room, my apartment isn't big my apartment isn't big at all but I was proud that I had gotten it all by myself.

Right around the middle of sophomore year I let Clarke dragged me to a party, she thought it would be fun and for a while it was but I got completely wasted. Most of the night is a blur, but I do remember losing Clarke in the crowd of people partying, I kept catching sight of her blonde hair but them it would disappear. Someone started touching me, kissing my neck sloppily and running his hands down my sides. He pulled me to a secluded room, I didn't know what to do. He took advantage of me, the fact that I was confused, alone, and very drunk. I've always been strong, I don't even remember if I fought back. I pretty much blacked out after that, I woke up a couple hours later in an unfamiliar bed with a guy sleeping next to me. I was horrified and confused at the same time, I didn't remember anything and I still don't remember much. I didn't tell anyone, the party was still going on downstairs and I wanted more then anything to find Clarke and tell her everything that happened. To have her hold me and comfort me but I felt stupid, after all I didn't really remember what happened, I thought I was being dramatic, so I just slipped out the backdoor and left. I kept the whole situation to myself, I didn't know who to tell or what I would even say, so I just tried to forget about it. But then I missed my period, I brushed it off, after all there's many reasons this could happen, but deep down I had a horrible suspicion. And I was right, I was pregnant. It felt like my entire life was crumbling around me, like everything was falling apart.

Flashback

I sob loudly, my breathing is quick and uneven. My eye's are trained on the positive pregnancy test in front of me. This can't be happening, what am I going to do? My breaths speed up, I'm not ready to have a baby. My mother bursts through my door, she probably hear me crying, "Are you al-" she doesn't finish her sentence, she stares at the test like I was a few seconds ago, my eyes are trained on her face. I expected her to give me a hug, tell me she was going to support me and that everything would be okay. I needed my mother, I needed her to help me. "What have you done?" she mutters, "I-" she cuts me off, "GET OUT" she yells at me, I feel frozen in place. "Mom please" I beg but her eyes are filled with fury, "You are a disgrace to this family and I will not have you living under my roof" she scoffs, her eyes once full of love and hope are now staring at me with disgust and anger. "Pack your things, I want you gone by dark Alexandra" her voice is ice cold, tears pour down my face, how could things possibly get any worse.

Flashback Over

I was crushed when my parents threw me out, I couldn't understand how someone could do that to their child. I was lucky enough to stay with my friend Anya who lives out of town for a few months while I got my life together. Very early on I decided to keep the baby, I didn't have any family left and I felt like I had someone to go through all of this with. I started waitressing and cleaning gym equipment at the gym near Anya's house in the meantime , I took my classes online at night and worked as hard as I could. I didn't want to end up like all the cautionary stories people tell their children. And I did it, it took over a year but I got my own place, I cared for Aden my wonderful son, and I kept up all my studies. And today I'm finally going back to school, I'm nervous but I'm ready. I finished my morning routine like every day, making breakfast for Aden and I, getting Aden dressed and ready, and finally loading up the car to drop him off at daycare. I then drive to school, I know I'm late but I had trouble saying goodbye to Aden this morning. He's the light in my life. I get out of my car and walk to the front office to get my schedule. I wait at the desk while the rude lady behind it gets my stuff together. 

That's when I see her walking down the hallway, her golden hair is carelessly tossed over her shoulder, and her blue ocean eye's I see the pain in them, the pain I made her feel. As she approaches she finally see's me, her eye's go wide and she looks overwhelmed, "Lexa?" she says right before I watch her being to lose consciousness.  

Hi, it's Nola. Nicole and I switch off chapter so you may notice some differences but I think it makes the different povs more interesting. I hope you're enjoying the story and I hope you have an amazing day. Thank you so much for taking the time to read our story it means a lot. Please vote and comment so we know if you want us to continue this. 

-Nola 


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