I'm Not Afraid (Clexa AU)

Chapter 6

-Lexa -

I sit stunned in the coffee shop, Clarke's outburst scared me. I sit for a moment processing everything that just went down. I feel horrible that I can't open up to Clarke but this is my mess, Aden is my responsibility and I don't want her getting tangled up in any of this. I rescheduled my waitressing shift today so I could meet her, I expected things to go over better but now I have extra time, I might as well go get Aden, I miss him. I leave Arkadia Café and walk to my white Kia. I start the car and begin to drive to Aden's daycare, Clarke if only you knew. 

Flashback

"Right this way Ms. Woods" I follow the nurse through the maze of hallways and into a secluded room. "Take a seat" she says gesturing to a medical chair in the middle of the room. I sit down slowly, this whole thing makes me nervous. "I'm just going to get the doctor, she'll do the ultrasound for you" she says as she leaves the room. I'm terrified, this is my first pre natal appointment and unlike many other girls in the same the situation, I'm alone. The gentle opening of the door interrupts my thoughts, "Hi I'm Dr. Pramheda, you must be Lexa." she says warmly and I nod. "I know this is all overwhelming, have you thought about your options" she asks, I gulp. I don't know what to do, "I'm not sure.." I murmur, she gives me a sympathetic look. "You're 16 Lexa, this will change your life, maybe for the better or maybe for the worse" she tells me, I'm alone, I can't go home anymore, this little baby is the only family I have left. "I think I want to keep them" I say, she smiles and nods, "Alright lets get a look at them" she says and put's cold gel on my stomach. She put the ultrasounds in the gel and begins to move it around, the screen is blurry. "One second" she says, I don't know what I'm waiting for, "There, that's their heartbeat" she informs me, I hear a quiet but rhythmic thumping, the heartbeat. It's just you and me little baby.

Flashback over

It was a quick ride and I get there in a few minutes. I get out of my car to be greeted by an angry Raven, this can't be good. "Raven how did you..." I trail off, how did she find me? "Come on Lexa I'm amazing at engineering, I know how to track a phone" she scoffs, I don't know what to say, this has to be about Clarke. "What the hell Lexa, you're hurting her, you caused enough pain by leaving now you're closed off and confusing, why are you doing this" she asks, "I wish I could tell her Raven" I whisper. I wish I could make her happy again. "Mama" then I hear his little voice, "Lexa I'm sorry he saw you from the window and he ran out" Maya says, I watch as Raven's eyes dart back and forth between Aden, Maya, and I. I pick Aden up and hold him, "Hey sweetie, how was your day" I ask him, he giggles a little, "Gweat, I got to pway with Madi" he tells me and I smile. "I'm glad you had fun, This is mommy's friend Raven, can you say hi?" I say, he looks at Raven and I can tell he's a little shy. "Hi Rwaven" he says, Raven is still in shock. "Let me drive you home Raven we can talk" I tell her, she just nods, "Have a good night Maya, Aden say bye bye to Maya" I say, "Bye bye Maya" he says to the daycare employees as she walks back inside. "See you soon Aden" she yells back. I buckle Aden into his car seat in the back and get into the driver seat, Raven opens the passenger side door and gets in as well. "I have some explaining to do" I tell her, "That's Aden he's my son, I was sexually assaulted at a party sophomore year. It turns out I got pregnant. I got kicked out of my house and had to support myself and my baby. I stayed with a friend for a while but eventually I got my own place. I gave birth alone and continued school online while I cared for him." I give her the short version of my story not wanting to relive some of the details. Raven's speechless, "Lexa...why didn't you tell anyone?" she asks, "This was something I had to deal with alone" I respond. "Clarke, why didn't you tell her you were leaving, she was your best friend" Raven questions, "Raven, I got kicked out I had to find a place. I care about Clarke, a lot. I didn't want her getting dragged into any of this, she has such a bright future I couldn't bring her down. I knew it would hurt her but in the end it would be better." I explain. "You can tell her, she'd understand" Raven whispers, "I've done this alone for 2 years, I don't need to get anyone mixed up in it" I say. We sit in silence for a few moments. "Lexa?" Raven says, "Yes?" I ask, "I'm sorry. That couldn't have been easy, any of it but you did it." she murmurs, "Thank you" I whisper. It felt good, to finally tell someone, it felt nice that someone recognized how hard I worked. Many people who see a young girl with a baby are quick to judge. I didn't want to become the girl parents use as an example to their kids of what happens when you throw your life away. I didn't want to become the stereotypical teen mother. "He's amazing" she offers, I smile, "Yeah he's pretty awesome" I mutter.

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