Why □Tododeku □

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Midoriya's POV:

"DEKU!"

'Some people walk around smiling and being happy. Some u can see their anger and know they walk around with hate.'

"DEKU!"

'But what about those that walk around full of life but are dieing on the inside. What happens to them?'

"DEKU!"

"DEKU! ARE U DEAF!?" shouted Uaraka.
"Huh?" I responded realizing that I zone out. "Are you okay?" she asked looking at my burned hand. I wish people would stop asking me that question, it's annoying now. I gave her the biggest smile I could master. Not too big that she thought I was faking. Not to small that I looked sad, just a moderate smile. "I'm okay Uaraka" I said closing my eyes.

It's been a week since my last episode of noticeable sadness. I've been able to convince everyone that I'm okay. Even Todoroki stopped following me around, but I must say that I m-miss hi-m, just a lil I guess. He started spending a lot more time with Momo, I miss the attention from him, WAIT WHAT AM I SAYING!!

*bell rings*

"YASSSSSSSSS lunch, LETS GOOOOO!!" the perverted twins yelled running out the class. I was walking to the cafeteria with the 'Deku squad' as everyone calls it. "Hey looks it's our class mates Todoroki and Yaoyorozu" Ida said, bringing my attention to the two, I looked at them for a moment and noticed something, are they holding hands!? "They are sooo cute together!!" Uaraka said fangirling as she jumped around. "Yhh, I wonder if they have finally started dating!!" Asui said, joining in the jumping. "Now now, shouldn't be I  their business,  although they have gotten really close" Ida with a small satisfactory smile on his face. I on the other hand remained silent, idk y but I was getting angry at the thought that Todoroki and Momo was dating. When the two saw us they walked over, "Hey guys!" Momo said waving as they approached us. The five made small talk until Momo had to leave, "I got to go, see u guys, bye Todoroki" after saying his name she gave him a kiss on the cheek and ran off. This mad by blood boil, seriously what is wrong with me. "OMGGGGGGGG!!" the two girls squealed. "Are u two dating!?" asked Uaraka, her sudden question made Todoroki choke on his water. "Well." he began saying being cut off my Asui, "Well... are u guys dating!?". "It's complicated" he said rubbing the back of his neck. At this point I had enough, the appetite that I never had was gone. I got up and left the cafeteria, heck no one even noticed, they where more caught up Todoroki and Momo's love story.

I walked to the bathroom and locked myself into one of the stalls, I couldn't help it. Not even knowing y I just stayed there and started crying. 'WHY THE HELL AM I CRYING' I thought, not having the answer I just started crying more, softly as to not bring attention to myself.

Todoroki POV:

'Why did Midoriya leave?' Is he feeling sick, did he forget something. After being questioned about Yaoyorozu for five minutes, the others noticed that Midoriya was absent from the group. "Wait when did Deku leave??" Asked Uaraka. "He was here a minute ago" said Ida looking around the cafeteria. "He probably forgot something in class" added Asui. Maybe, I hope ur nothing doing anything stupid Midoriya, u promised.

*bell rings*

"Time to head back to class everyone!" Ida said, we all agreed and headed back to class. "MIDORIYA!! WHERE DID U GO!?" Ida shouted when he saw Midoriya in the halls. But Midoriya didn't even look at us, he just walked into the class with his head down. We all was shocked and didn't understand his change in behavior. Everyone else went to there seat, since Mr. Azzawi wasn't there in class, I took this opportunity to talk to Midoriya. "Are u okay?" I clearly scared him as I just came up from behind with no warning. He shook his head yes which was a big red flag for me. "Follow me" I instructed as I walked out the class, as always he followed. He always answers my questions so him nodding, I could tell something was up. I walked into the bathroom as I thought it would be the most private, no one was in there and I was very happy with that. He walked in quietly still looking at the floor. I folded my arms and leaned back on the sink, "Are u going to tell me what's wrong,  or are we going to be in here for the rest of the day" I said, making it very clear I was serious, he tried to run. "If u run that's it, I'm not helping u ever again" ik my words would scare him, I feel bad, but this is the only way I could get him to listen to me. "Look at me Midoriya" he hesitated for a while, and it is red eyes looked at me. He was clearly having a hard time holding back tears. "Why are u crying?", "Why do care, y dont u go hang out with Yaoyorozu!" his own words made him cry even more. "Why would u say that?" I asked I was confused as to y he was acting out all of a sudden. "U stopped checking up on me, all u do is spend time with HER" he trying his best to stop crying and wipe away his tears, but the more he tried the more they fell. "Why do I need to check up on u? What are u five!" I said clearly annoyed, his eyes widened his tears stopped for a moment. Only a moment until he looked in the mirror behind me. He looked down at started crying again, ik nothing I said was going to make me forgive him so, I did the stupidnes thing ever, I walked away, I basically just told the person I have A HUGE CRUSH ON, that i don't care about them anymore.

Midoriya POV:

He left, he left me here, he doesn't care anymore. I want to just sit here and cut my self but to do that I need a blade and the only one I have is in my phone case which is in my bag in class, great. I did my best to calm down by washing my face, my eyes was still red and would be like that for a while. I was getting tired of being in the bathroom so I went back to class.

No one's POV:

When Midoriya walked into class he went straight for his seat not making eyes contact with anyone. When he got there he sat down and put his head down. He started thinking about how todoroki left him in the bathroom and tried to stop himself from not crying again. With not succes he started crying again, choking back all sound, he just sat and waited for the bell to ring.

*bell rings*

Midoriya got his things and ran out of the class not saying anything, of course some called after him some even tried to follow him with no luck.

Once in his dorm he went to his bathroom and locked the door. He ripped off jacket and shirt and unwrapped his arms. He started cutting his hands, giving reasons for each cut. And with the final cut whispered "this one is for being gay."