How To Unlove Jennie Kim

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                                         •Lisa•

"You okay Lili" now I don't know anymore if the cause of my heart beating you or because of nervousness Kim Jennie...

"Trying to" with trembling hands I closed the car's door and walked towards the door I once thought would never see again...

The door that once turned its back to me

The door I turned my back to

It was mutual

We both didn't want each other.

"Hold my hand Lisa" you whispered softly to me extending your hand for me to hold

And who am I to refuse tho?

"Calm down a bit Lisa they won't bite you" chills were sent down my toe to up my head

It's funny how things change

From home to nothing

From mummy to mother

The only thing that remains the same is my father's hate for me

"Do you want me to knock?" I was pulled out of my thoughts when you cracked a sentence that made realize how weak I am in your eyes

It's obvious you are trying to take the lead

"No" I gathered my courage back and stood proudly pressing the bell

Not so long a maid opened the door, she sniffed once she saw me

She is new but I guess she received the order not to let me in just like the others

Hah as if I would go back

"I-" i cut her off coldly

"Tell your master that I'm here"

She hurdily went upstairs but not before making sure she closed the door

It was never opened to me anyway

You were looking at me the whole time, I wonder what goes on your mind Kim.

I glanced at you and was about to ask what's up but a 
familiar figure stood in front of me

"You actually came..." the voice was broken, eyes were teary and lips were trembling

I looked up from your petite figure to the one my heart has been longing for...

"Oh my god I have missed you like crazy Lisa... You have grown too much are you even real?"

"Unless you started seeing unrealistic things mother." She looked hurt I admit.

"You have changed too..." I may look the coldest but from the inside I was torn already

Seeing the first love of my life being terribly sad broke my heart thousand times...

"No one stays the same...mother" I bitterly said the last word

She sighed and was about to say something when another very familiar tall figure came into the picture.

I thought my eyes couldn't be any colder but once his eyes met mine I felt a sudden pain

A sudden anger

A pinch of unwanted emotions

I wanted to shout at him

Punch him

I wanted to tell him how much I hate him

But I remained cold and all

"Lalisa" his deep voice deepened my anger we were now almost the same high

"I see you still know how to oblige kid"

"I came here to make things clear I'm not here because I'm afraid or something-" I didn't finish my words when I saw how his eyes looked at you.. standing beside me hand in hand...

His eyes redened, I knew when he gets angry and now he is definitely fuming...

"You dare to bring one of your wh*res too" he raid his eyebrow glaring at me

I pulled you behind me gritting my teeth, glaring at him as well

"Say one more thing about her and you are doomed father" I heard gasps from all over the mansion as now all maids were watching the scene

"A sin is a sin you will never change! Now you dare to raise your voice and even cuss at your father just because of this bloody hoe?" All my coolness went away when I heard his words I was about to lose my last nerve if it wasn't for you holding onto my arms

"Lisa! This is your father you can not talk to him like that!" I looked at you In disbelief when you took his side

"I was defending you and you are taking his side now? Did you even hear what did he just say???" You looked calm, unbothered and still manage to keep your manners

"Ma'am, Sir, sorry for her behavior I assure you she is not like that all the time she is such a sweet lady with such manners" you bowed in front of them and for once- I saw shockness in my father's face

He must be surprised of who unbothered you are and how polite you are

He's always loved perfection

Even him couldn't deny the fact that you, Jennie Kim screams perfection

"Honey please" my head Snapped again from you to my mother's broken voice

She is begging him again to let me in

The Déjà vu of those times my father was about to kick me out came back

She always begged for him to no to

Until that day...

"Just because it's your birthday" he walked away angrily, clearly not so over your perfection yet...

"Come on in please" she stepped aside allowing us to come in

More like allowing me to come home

A home I tried escaping from my whole life...

Now that I have you...maybe just maybe finally I would be able to let go of the past...

Lame but necessary sorry...

"Dear tummy, sorry for all the butterflies, I swear it's not my fault, it's hers"

                                                                -R