How To Unlove Jennie Kim

•9• Not Alone

                                          •Lisa•

 
They say you love a lot, but just one of those many times is the love of your life

In short

There is only one real love of each one's life that you can call ' the love of my life '

And you Jennie Kim is the one.

Cold was what I felt when I stepped out of the car but a warm feeling invaded my chest just when your smile enlightened my life.

You guys must be confused, let me end your confusion.

                    *Flashback Lisa's pov*

It was heavenly

Really...

The feelings of your warm arms around me

Healing my broken heart little by little

Sadly life is a bitch.

I didn't get to spend more than 10 minutes in your heaven,

You cleared your throat and repositioned yourself, timidely taking your previous position

Before you start talking you heaved a sigh and I knew where this is leading already

"Listen... I really know I'm not in a place to tell you what to do hell to that I'm probably just a stranger to you but I'm sorry I couldn't help but to listen to the conversation you just shared with your ahm- father?" I chuckled when you yourself couldn't believe that a father could do that

"Why?" Your perfect eyebrows turned into a frown looking rather annoying than mad

"Nothing haha it's just funny how you yourself couldn't believe that a father could do that to his own blood" at first it was funny but when it is said out loud it just felt like every other thing in my life

Bittersweet....

" I'm sorry I really didn't mean to make you that awkward Jen"

"No it's okay it's my fault I should pick my words sorry if I pressed a fresh wound?" I couldn't help to chuckle again fresh?

"You would be very surprised if you know that this wound is already closed." You were about to say something when I cut off

"But its scar still hurts when scrunched" my voice was no other than a whisper just enough for you and the university to hear maybe one of you may be able to heal my broken soul...

You eyes showed pity,

I hated that look.

I hate seeing how weak I am in your eyes

Cause truth is, I'm such a weak person who no one loves including me.

Yes,

I hate myself

You were about to reach for me again but I stopped you by raising my hand while shaking my head gently.

"Don't" I cringed at how pathetic I sounded

"You don't need to hide lis... the scar is gonna always be there if you just hid it.... you need to heal it..." your voice was so soft that I couldn't help but get teary

"You don't understand... he does what he say Jen... if I didn't go he will literally brag into my very own apartment and drag me..."

"Well he wouldn't need to do it..." I looked at you for a second getting suspicious

"Cause you Lisa Manoban are definitely going."

And as if the bomb you just dropped wasn't enough you decided to drop another.

"With ME" my eyes were doubled size already

You stated so bravely

How can you be this brave?

"Well now you look really weird Lisapoo, go shoo there is no time for this we only got two hours before your so called dad brags in."

"Oh... and Lisa? Know that you are not alone in this fight" you whispered softly cupping my face, with a soft smile you placed a soft kiss on my left cheek assuring me to go

My world went black after this I literally don't even remember how I got dressed most importantly how you helped yourself with my closet choosing a decent dress

But I think we all know how this went aren't we?

Most importantly

Jennie Kim isn't helping at all!

How am I supposed to unlove you Kim fucking Jennie?

"Mother once told me that men are dangerous but she never told me how dangerous women could be."

                                                            -R